New totebag

Playing around with some new fabric I got at walmart...

Worried....

I spent most of my day at the ER with my brother...His marriage is getting worse, one minute things are fine next minute she is telling my brother to get out. He said he couldnt take it anymore and mentioned killing himself. I dont think he would really do it I think it was more frustration than anything... But he drove himself to the hospital and I met him there.. We met with a counselor talked about things and got some things out. He needed someone to talk to that wasnt family. He is at my moms right now and she doesnt want him back. She says he cheated on her, he says he didnt and I believe him. On the other hand I dont think she has been faithful, I think she has someone on the side all ready and thats why she has been acting the way she has. Tomorrow we are going to the court house to get a public defender and put the paper work thru to have the baby tested to make sure he is my brothers. I know this is bad but I am so hoping he is not my brothers so he can walk away from her and have no ties, cause she will take my brother for whatever she can get out of him. So I am hoping the baby isnt his, he needs to be out of this toxic relationship...

Sheriff at my door....

At 7:30 this morning I had a Sheriff at my door... I was having a heart attack as to why, she was looking for my brother... To serve him child support papers and custody papers, thing about that is he is still living with his wife... A few weeks ago my brother and his wife got into a fight... My brother lied about who he was on the phone with to his wife... He does these stupid things so he doesnt have to fight with his wife and it blows up in his face... So she finds out who he is on the phone with, accuses him of cheating on him the whole nine yards and goes as far as filing abandonment papers and custody papers saying my brother no longer lives there. He never left and i told the sheriff he hasnt left the residence and he never abandoned them. It is such a mess, a damn soap opera. My sil is so insecure and always is accusing my brother of cheating on her, and he hasnt he loves his wife why i have no idea with all the fighting they do... And now they have a child, what a mess... Heres a good one though, right before the wedding my sil cheated on my brother with this person K. She never told my brother and at one point my brother and his wife were living with my mom again and my sil talks my mom into letting one of her friends move in cause he has no place to go... The person was K, she still didnt tell my brother what she had done... About three months of them living all under the same roof it comes out what they did... I cant even find a word as to what I think of the whole situation. I am glad I dont have a marriage like theirs cause i would probably go insane... Why they got married i have no idea and i even asked my brother are you sure... I know he wanted to wait longer before getting married but he felt pressured and now they have a kid... One day its I dont want to have a kid with her to be tied to her forever if it doesnt work out and then its I want to have a child and they did but there is the little voice nagging saying to me "is it really his?" What a fuckin mess

too cute

I woke up to this so had to get the camera real quick... How cute is this...

New pic

Here is a pic of me with my nephew at my 40th bday party....

Rest In Peace....

I wasnt going to watch but I put CNN on, it still hasnt sunk in that he is gone... I hope you find peace MJ, a place where you can be happy and away from all the blood suckers and people who wanted to use you... Goddess bless

My new toy

Hubby got me a netbook for my birthday, I have been looking at them and thought it would be a good thing for when I do photo sessions and want to bring a computer with me. Its such a pain in the butt to have to carry around one of my other monsters... This one has a ten in. screen. Here is a pic of it next to my reg laptop, isnt it cute lol..

New pic

I thought I would share a recent photo of me wearing a new necklace I made...

Jaggar

Meet my brothers little boy... Jaggar..

Little guy is here

At 7:15 am today 7 lbs 2 oz and 20.5 in long little jagger came into the world by c-section... SIL was trying for a vaginal birth but mom said the babys heartbeat started to slow and that SIL was starting to bleed? I will get all the details tomorrow, I was going to go to see them tonight but a migraine has started so took my meds and I cant drive on them.... brightest blessings everyone

Waiting

My sister in law is 4cm so my nephew should be born today or tomorrow?

Hiya

Its been awhile since I posted any kind of update on me so lets see.... I have something wrong with my wrist and arm... Not sure what I did at first they thought carpal tunnel but the rehab lady said no, then she thought tendonitis but after a week and going back she doesnt think its that either... It hurts a lot, typing for long periods is hard and when it hurts I have to wear a hard splint so that makes typing even harder...Its in my wrist and the pain can go into my hand a bit but mostly it goes up my wrist and up my arm... i also have a numb spot on my wrist, no idea why it did that and I baffle the rehab lady... Then last night while trying to let the dog in my foot got caught on the gate and I fell down, banging my knee its all black and blue and hurt, I fell on the bad arm and I went face first down and wacked my nose... Didnt break it but it hurts...

my mom hasnt been feeling good she thought she pulled something in her shoulder and on easter we went to the er... They in turn thought it was her heart, so many tests later and a hospital stay they had her come back for a stress test and then yesterday I took her to a heart hospital for them to put a catheter up her leg into her heart to get a better look after all the stress of that and worrying we got the news her heart is fine, she has normal build up I guess but nothing that will require her to have any kind of heart procedure...

Yesterday was just crap for me , having to get up at 4:30am driving almost 2 hours mom stressing closer we got that we werent going the right way... lost my cell phone, running all over the hospital retracing my steps, big hospital, to stop by the desk after all that to find someone turned it in... Then I lost a strand of pray beads, and then the fall that night...

So a lot has been going on past couple of weeks so if i have been scarce or havent commented or done something or not have done something I have been a little preoccupied and a little forgetful so i hope you can forgive me...

Paying it forward

Jenn at Feeling Geeky is having a contest to Pay it Forward ... Go by her site to see about the details and enter this great contest...

For fun

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**Edit** found this at rabid reflections I dont always get to finish my post with having two kids