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Day Dreaming

This is where we live right now... We are hoping to be swapping houses with my mom in the near future, my brother just needs to get his act together and move out with his wife and we will move... Right now they are living with my mom driving her nuts...






This is the house we are hoping to be in, would be nice if it was by winter time... We need the room... The kids need the room... They would have a whole room for a toy area... A huge living room to run around it... So many possibilities...

Waiting for the other shoe to drop....

I have a damn headache now... My brother called me telling me my mom is wigging out over a sweatshirt she says is hers and sil says she bought... Problem living in a house with other people and buying secondhand clothes is things get mixed up... It was a 5 dollar shirt who the hell cares... Sil says my mom can have the shirt (didnt say it she says and shove it up her ass)... My mom says its my sisters and that my mom bought it for her... Sil says she lent it to my sister once when she was cold... My brother is wigging out and calls me... I told him ya know what you moved back in to save money, get your fuck'n act together and move out... You and mom can not live under the same roof anymore... Get out... He moved in with mom cause he knew he could cheat her out of money... Its true my mom and he cant live together...My mom can live with anyone cause no one lives up to her standards... They cant do anything right and never do enough... Granted my brother doesnt do anything but growing up i could never live up to my mothers standards... When she and the family went away and i stayed home i would spend the day before cleaning the house top to bottom and she always found fault... I could have hired pro's to clean the house and it would never be good enough... And my mom doesnt remember everything she buys... I had a fight years ago about a pair of shoes that she said where hers and I said they were mine she bought me my own... She argued and argued finally i threw the shoes at her and said take them... Well after she got off her high horse she went to her closet and found her pair... She never apologized but she doesnt remember everything she buys and i can say that cause i have been there... I am waiting for her to call me and bitch about it... Who knows if she is home or calling my sister to find out who's shirt it is... So damn stupid...

Wanting to die?

Thats how I felt with the migraine i woke up with... it was bad... I took two lortab when i woke up and that didnt even touch it... so then i took my migraine meds one then another one two hours later and still nothing and then the throwing up started and that didnt even help just made things worse... Finally i broke down and had mom take me to the er while hubby stayed with the girls... I am finally feeling better... I got pain meds, stuff for my stomach and fluids... guess i was a bit dehydrated... They could have stuck me with whatever they wanted as long as the pain stopped... I hate when they are that bad... Its like loosing a day with my family cause i cant function... Hubby is just the best, he took care of the girls, washed the floors, did laundry cleaned up... I am so lucky to have a husband like him... I love him to pieces... Oh well I am going to relax... hugs to all

New Love

Is banging out metal... Ive been waiting to get a block so I can bang out metal but I couldnt wait any longer I wanted to play around so I took two hammers one for banging and the other to put the metal on, works just fine till I can get what I want... Think I might actually get an anvil instead so I have thinner surfaces... But here is something that I did last night, not done with it but got the major parts done... I take a strip of metal weave it around in different squiggles and then hammer it out by its self... I found this way to work better...Bang out the circle then the squiggle then put it together... So I made a bunch of different size circles and ovals... Its so much fun, Joy you were right I love doing this...

Watching

I like to be quiet and sneak up on my girls and watch them play... Sometimes together other times when they are by themselves... I just love the imagination and the facial expressions they have... To see their minds at 3 and 1 at work... I find them amazing every day... It still baffles me at times that we made them... I carried them for 9 months and then brought them into the world... I dont think anything has been as amazing as them coming into our lives... I hope I do a good job raising them and they turn out to be good people... My little miracles... I remember how terrified I was to have the first one, my doc asked me if anything was wrong and I told her I was terrified to give birth... She giggled at me and said it will be ok and she has to come out sometime she cant stay in there... I was so scared that I couldnt handle a regular birth, yes I was induced but still she was coming out the way the goddess intended and that scared the living crap out of me... I made sure my doc knew I wanted an epidural and even then it didnt take it all away... I had horrible back labor... Hubby was amazing, there by my side, holding my hand feeding me ice chips, telling me she is almost here and when i thought i couldnt go on he told me he could see the head, almost done your doing great and then I felt the rush of her break thru and I felt her squirm and I was amazed... I did it, we did it and she was ok... I remember telling hubby I didnt think I could do that again but that didnt last long I wanted to give my baby girl someone to play with grow up with and expericence life with... Someone she could say, "she or he did it"... Now I have two beautiful girls and belive it or not I would like one more... I think I am up to 3-4 months of morning sickness, back pain, migraines from hell, swollen ankles, hot flashes and everything eles to bring one more miracle into the world and into our lives...

Pendants

Here are some new things I have been working on...

Saturday Gem show

This was my first gem show and OMG it was like christmas...I tried to go around and look first just to see what everyone had... It wasnt too big and lots of diff stuff and demo's and displays... But I did find some goodies and cant wait for the next show, I want to go to all the ones in the area to see which one I like best... So this is what I found, I all ready removed them from the strings... I wish I could have found more of those orange pearls it was a lone strand floating around ...

Pretty good

Thats how I felt today... I was surprised since yesterday I was in so much pain... So I was a happy camper... I did get a little sore when I was looking for my wedding rings, Rhi got into my jewelry and i couldnt find that and a few other rings... So I was moving things around and bending (which i wasnt supose to do) and the stress didnt help either... But I found them, so all is good... And I relaxed for a bit and put some heat on my back and feeling pretty good again...

The weather today was warmer than usual but not enough to melt all the snow we have here... I am sick of the white stuff... I am ready for green and flowers... I was thinking of doing a garden this year... I havent done one in the last two years and I kinda miss it... I had some wonderful sunflowers one year... They were so big and just happy... I need to get some new wind chimes for the trees too... Two of mine are missing... I like having them hanging all over... I even have them inside the house hanging in windows and doorways... I find them relaxing...

Well going to go and write up a description for a prayer strand I made for someone... So she knows what I used and why I used them... I hope she likes what I have created... I am really happy with it... Toodles

All messed up....

That was my back and my hips... I had my nerve block today... Wow did that sucker hurt... He puts the medicine in where the pressure points are and sometimes they hurt like hell... I have been in some pain since dec and my little trip that pulled my back and through it out of wack... The last few days have been horrible, I have hurt so bad sleeping was hard, doing anything was almost impossible cause any movement just hurt... And taking care of two small children is so hard when your in that much pain... And then I would feel guilty for being in so much pain cause I couldnt do anything... But hopefully todays NB and the one I will have in two weeks will get me on the right track... After I had my two injections and then the two small pressure points I get an adjustment... Turns out my hips were so out of wack one side was higher than the other and that caused my right leg to be shorter than my left... No wonder I have been in so much pain... So after being pulled, dangled, twisted like a pretzel he got everything to pop back into place... Of course I am not suppose to do much the next few days but that wont be possible... The numbing stuff has worn off and I am in a bit of pain more soreness than anything.... I am hoping tomorrow I will feel a little better but it might be worse before it gets better... I wonder if I will have to go to physical therapy after this... Ive had some tingling in my legs which is normal but annoying... My doc is kinda funny, he likes to play music when he does the NB, even tells you to bring your own stuff if you want... I guess he has played it too loud at times and other docs have complained, they like it quiet... He also gets kinda excited when he finds those pressure points that cause you pain, BINGO he will blare out, its kinda funny in a way... He also showed me my x-rays today and where the injections go in... Thats the part that takes the longest the x-rays and the placing of the needles... They use this cool x-ray machine that goes under the table so they dont have to have you move around, just swing it under the table and your good to get the other side... I am hoping I dont mess this one up, I had my fist series of NB over the summer in june and july... It was pretty good till I had that trip and almost went through a glass cabnit so I caught myself and new right away I did something bad... Getting older sucks things dont go back like they used to...

My mom went with me cause your not aloud to drive for 12 hours so she had to watch the girls too... Emma was good unless she heard me then she would start crying but rhi would take care of her she would lean over and say shooosh shoosh baby its ok... It was really sweet... Also this morning while getting ready rhi comes in with one of her my little ponys look mommy I got a pony, showed it to emma and told her she couldnt have it... I told her that wasnt nice and she should find a pony for emma... And she did, she told me okay mom left the room and came back with one for emma, here ya go baby... I told her that was very nice of her to share... She even shared her cookie that grandma got her with her sister... And people just love her she made friends with some ladies in the waiting room, she was admiring the one ladys necklace... Told her it was beautiful so the lady had a bracelet on and gave it to rhi, she said thank you and its so beautiful... Another guy came in while we were getting ready to leave and she was like hi how are you... People cant help but smile at her... Then you have emma who crys at anyone... Totally different...

Nerve block

I have one scheduled for tomorrow morning and I am a bit nervous... i shouldnt be I have had 3 all ready but its been a few months so I guess I am getting worked up about it... Plus it doesnt help I have been in so much pain the last few days... I have no clue what I might have done but I hurt... I cant get comfortable and the pain meds only work for so long... I am hoping this round of NB work and I dont mess my back up again... I cant deal hurting like this... Ive had pain shooting in my legs, I have been at points curled in a ball, or just finding a position that is comfortable for the moment... Cause it doesnt last... Even heat isnt helping as much as it used to... Going to try and take a nap since sleeping has been the pits last few days...

PJ Saturday....

Why get dressed when there is snow all around, rain, ice and just nasty outside... So I stay in my pj's and just hang out... I was hoping to get out this weekend but I dont think that is going to happen... Maybe tomorrow? I would love to be able to go see the new bead section at michaels... I would like to be able to get some canvas and maybe some other things to do... I would like to get things for me and the girls to be able to do... I found the fingerpaints the other day just not sure if i am that brave...

I have been having a little bit of a creative burst so I have been going with it... I have two bday presents to make... I got one pretty much done and the other I started... One is for my sil and it is really hard to make something for someone who pisses you off... Joy told me about a bead that would be so funny to make something out of Coprolite Petrified Dinosaur Fossil Gemstone Beads, its dinosaur dung... Its pretty but its poop... Its also 95 dollars a strand or more... Sometimes they run sales but event then she isnt worth the price... Even for a good joke... I did make a new prayer strand for myself... I dont know why I never made one out of labradorite before... I have my full moon strands but this is diff... I love how she feels... And I put loops on the bottom so when I find something I want to add to her I can...

UGH....

Its snowing AGAIN.... I am so sick of this weather, I am hoping its not as bad as they say we are going to get and we will be able to go out this weekend... I need to get out of here, I dont think I have left the house since last week...

More Ice

Ok Im really getting sick of this...