Sunday Shopping....

Well we got a late start but we went shopping for some food things we needed at sam's club... Love buying in bulk... And I got to use my gift card I got from my MIL.. It was for old navy... Not only did I have a gc, but they were having 50% all ready reduced clearance stuff... So I spent 37.00 of it and have 13.00 left and I got, a pair of jeans I so love, I was afraid they wouldnt fit being a size 6 but they looked a little on the big side... I also got 6 shirts, 2 heavy scarfs, 1 sweater, 1 dress... I probably could have spent the last bit on the card but I had hubby and the kids in the car... Hubs let me go in by myself so I could just have fun and enjoy myself... I have the portable dvd player in the car so the kids were entertained... Its been a long time since I enjoyed myself shopping like that... Felt good... Only down thing was probably while trying on all the clothes I lost the bracelet I made last night... It was only copper and glass but still... I also got a few odds and ends at michaels... They have like half the bead isle clearanced... I hope they are going to be bringing in some new fun stuff....

Well I am going to go relax now... Oh just an update, Emma is doing good... She is happy and on the go... She is still getting her appitiete back but I am sure she will be good in a few days... She has her wellness visit tomorrow, so will go over everything with the doc tomorrow... Have a good night....

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Emma and how did we start off her 1st birthday, me taking her to the ER with a 103.7 fever... I panicked gave her the tylenol but didnt wait for it to kick in by the time we got to the er and got into a room the fever broke... But she did get looked at and its viral so give meds for comfort and plenty of fluids... Its gotta run its course... Just a crappy way to turn one... She is finally sleeping for a bit though which is good, she needs to be near me though she doesnt want to sleep alone... Well I am going to try and get some sleep...

Rollercoaster.....

After my last post that is how I feel... I was so angry, Now I feel like crying... I was trying to make something earlier but now thats shot... I cant work when I am like this... :(

Kiss My Ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got off the phone with my sister.. she wanted to tell me my mom might be coming home tomorrow which i all ready knew... We got to talking about a few things and she brought up the ring my mom gave her on her wedding day to sperm donar... my sister asked about it and my mom told her not to worry about it... I dont like to lie and i felt bad hurting my sis but i told her the truth that the ring she gave her, which was my moms wedding set and the wedding set that was my aunts that i thought i would get on my wedding day for my something old, she pawned... Beautiful antique rings she got 600 bucks for that where worth a few grand... She needed cash for a little trip she made to see my brother she said when he worked at the camp... I was so mad when i found out what she did... I always wondered why she never gave them to me on my wedding day and she was clueless on letting me borrow something to walk down the isle with... I cried my eyes out the morning of my wedding, I was hysterical when I called rich... He called his mom and told me she would see me with something special... My mom sent over this crappy ring little while later but the damage was done... Hubbys mom let me wear a nice strand of pearls... What did my mom say when she saw me... "Where did you get those? are those my pearls?" No mom rich's mom brought them for me to wear for something old and borrrowed since I was so upset... So not only did my mom upset me, she then thought I stole from her... So now my sister is a little pissed at my mom... I know why she took the set back, she was afraid my sister would sell it... She always needed money... And who turns around and does it, my mom...

So sis and I had a long talk and she tells me how my sil talks about me and how hubs and I do nothing for my mom... How we dont go over and help my mom... Lets see, when mom was alone, we helped her whenever she needed it... When we could do it we gave her extra cash as well... Whenever she needs something now we do it for her... When hubby does the snow blowing he doesnt just do here, he does it all... We pay the bills over here on time so mom doesnt have to rent to anyone eles who wont take care of the place or let it sit vacant... Cause If my brother lived here, he wouldnt pay the bills... I pay the renters insurance over here, I pay for the cell phone my mom has that they couldnt do for her but could do for sil kid, who sil mother gave the phone to her son and he ran a bill up that i dont think they paid... When my mom needs a ride I do it...

What does my brother and his wife do? They dont work, either of them... They have no kids to take care of... The freeload off of my mom, they dont pay her rent... The eat her food and dont replace it... The run up the bills and dont help her pay them... When my mom asks a favor it takes my brother days, weeks or over a month to do things... My brother has borrowed money and not payed it back and now my sil thinks my mom is the bank too... My mom was happy with them not being there, they think she was lonely, she wasnt and wishes for those days now... My brother got back payment from ssi, about 19,000.00 he blew it less than a month I think... He bought himself a new car, he didnt pay for it in full so he does have a car payment, because of that they cant afford to live on there own cause they wont make their bills... They cant pay my mom money but they go out all the time, have money for cigarettes go out to eat, etc... They keep bringing home animals and my mom winds up taking care of them, paying for the vet bills or being guilted into paying vet bills... My mom feeds their animals as well as her own, and even when they left last time, they left their three cats there... I keep telling my mom to stand up for her self she is an adult but my brother likes to guilt her into things, my sil is just a bully and wont do it in front of me for me to see how she treats my mom but I so wish i would see it... And even when my mom tells him no my brother will nag my mom and nag her to the point of driving her nuts so she gives in... My brother is a DICK... This is something that has been bothering me as well cause I keep my mouth shut cause everything I hear is from others... I told my mom today if he has something to say and same for sil have the balls to say it to my face... Dont bitch to my mom cause your too chicken shit to say it to me... And that I am going to say to my brother... I so want for him to tell me what I dont do, so I can tell him all he doesnt do and how he freeloads off my mom, he is 34, and he needs to start acting like a man...

Happy New Year....?

I wish I was happy but I have been depressed and its getting on my nerves... I dont know what is wrong with me... It has been happening on and off but as of lately its been constant... Is it the new year...? If I dont feel like crying then I am pissed off... And that has been getting really bad too... My mom is in the hospital, that happened new years eve... My sil had to go calling around to find her cause when they got home they noticed the animals hadnt been fed... My mom didnt call anyone to let them know where she was and she didnt think to have the nurses call one of her emergency contacts... She went to the ER around 3:30... It was after 7 when we found out where she was... So I got pissed off about that... Then we all went to the ER and she starts jumping down my brothers throat and for once he didnt deserve it so I told her to knock it off... She then tries using the medication she is on, it makes me funny she says... I then said to her "well whats your excuse for the other 364 days of the year"? I guess i touched a nerve with that cause she got upset... I appologized kinda, before i left to go home i told her i'm sorry that i'm on her case but she does things that drive me nuts and she is her own worst enemy... She told me i drive her nuts, we hugged and said i love you's ... I was also pissed that my mom was still in the er at 10:30, they were going to admit her, they just needed to find a bed... at 10:30 they still didnt have one and they had 3 others waiting for rooms, old people in wheelchairs in the waiting room with iv's hooked up cause they were so busy and I guess understaffed... I cant wait for that "how'd we do" form they send ... I also was pissed off at my brother cause he was there for maybe 30 min and then they had to leave... they left me there cause they had to go meet her cousin at midnight to drop off her kid... why they had to go hours before i dont know... I left at 10:30 cause I didnt want to be driving closer to midnight...my mom understood she didnt want me driving with all the drunks either...

There is so much more bugging me but I will save that for tomorrow... I'm probably driving hubby nuts with my typing but I cant sleep and I figured I needed to get this out...

Merry Christmas, Merry Yule...

The holidays have been good here... Hubby wrapped up the presents last night while I finished a tote bag for one of my sil... I also had to find a frame for a pic of hubby and his mom dancing at our wedding that I wanted to give her...

We went to my moms on x-mas eve... We have always done it that way, which is nice cause then the next day we go to hubbys moms and dads... So mom got me another pair of pjs, so I got a flannel pair and fleece set... I got a jacket early so I could wear it when the weather was still good to wear that jacket... She got me a cute santa fairy for the tree, and bro and sil got me some perfume and lotions... I know I am forgetting something but I cant think what... lol...

At hubbys dads I got a set of snack trays, a great wrap blanket, a few jewelry making tools and an assortment of beads, and a ring sizer... I also got a lovely pair of diamond earrings and a fleece pair of pjs from his dad... His sister got us a gc for one of the local restaurants and will watch the kids so hubby and I can have a date night... That will be so nice since I cant think of the last date night we had... Oh and hubbys dad found some old beaded lace from the 1890's that was taken off of a coat... It is so pretty... Not sure what I am going to do with it yet... I took pictures but will post them tomorrow after I upload them...

At hubbys moms I got another pair of flannel pj's with pink and purple stars on them, I love those... And a gc for old navy...

Hubby and I havent done xmas for us yet, that should be this weekend... Money was tight so we decided to do us after and shop for family and the kids...

Well I am going to run... Its almost 2:30... I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday...

Brightest Blessings from my family to yours...

My doctor on maternity leave....

I got a letter in the mail today about how they are welcoming a physicians assistant to the office to help when my doc is on leave and when she comes back... She can do all the things my doc can do, she has been working for another doctor and has a good background... She also happens to be my sil best friend... She seems very smart, I didnt care for her as a teenager, she was a bit snotty... Ive seen her a few times over the past year and she seems ok... Just not sure how I feel about letting her give me my 6month paps... I guess I will give her a chance and see how I feel after that... Who knows she might feel weird and have someone else do it...

And a quick note, I did send out holiday cards just have to check with hubby to see if he actually sent them... It was easier for me to give them to him than for me to have to load two kids in the car to go down to the P.O. during the summer or warmer times its not so bad cause I leave the door open and have full view of the car... But with it being cold I wouldnt want to leave the door open... And before anyone gets huffy about me leaving my kids in the car, I live in a very small town, the post office is so small I am not far from my kids and park in full view of the door... I should get a pic of down town so you could see how small it is... You blink you would miss it... We have a p.o., a health clinic, a furniture restoration place, then cross the street, you have insurance place, town hall, and historic building with library on second floor... We used to have a place to buy groceries and get quick food but it burned down... And no one has rebuilt it...

Oh well, off to bed... Nighty Nite....

Been feeling blah...

I dont know what is up with me lately... I dont know if its the snowy weather that the sun doesnt come thru that is making me feel so down... Or if it is winter blues or what... Yesturday Rhi was getting on my last nerve and I sent hubby a im telling him to come home when he gets out of work, no stopping at the store or anything just come home so I could lock myself in the bedroom for an hour alone... An hour later things were better, we had a nice dinner and by the time hubby got home emma was taking a nap and rhi and I cuddled on the couch for a nap...

I have been tired, havent been sleeping well...

My back has really been bothering me and when i called in for my pain med refill they told me they need to see me... Actually they kind of annoyed me... I told them I hurt my back and would like to see the doc, he had surgery so he wouldnt be able to do any manipulations on me, i said fine i just want to see him, and i needed a refill on y pain meds... Well the NP will probably need to see you since you havent been in in awhile... what were we just talking about... so she tells me someone will call back when its ready and i told them i want to pick it up, ok she says... No call for the rest of the day, no call the next day, I called again and left a message, no one calls me the next day by late afternoon so I call again to then be told again that the doc will want to see me cause this is the last refill he will do till he does, I then told them well i hurt my back and i would like to see him like i told the girl the other day and what happend to my call back? Also they mailed the script in after i told her i would pick it up... I was so annoyed by the time i got off the phone... I got an appointment for Jan 7th, glad I am in pain to wait that long...What is it with pain management doctors...?

I am not ready for the holidays, we still have more shopping to do... and then have to wrap it all...

I wanted to make things for everyone and I am finding it hard to find any inspiration... Plus no time to sit down with beads... I always have one of the girls that need something and when I want to make something I need to have time uninterupted...

I just feel blah...

What will happen

Read this today... This time of year is just getting horrible... Then there are the comments I tried posting and got my words twisted around like I was trying to turn people into wiccans... This time of year used to bring such joy to me... It was never about religion, it was about giving, now its about who is right who is wrong... Who can display this and not that... Its obvious we cant all get along, some will try to but there will always be someone to ruin the progress...

Update as of 9am.

Fever was 100.9 at 8:25, its breaking... She is a lot cooler to the touch and she has been drinking ginger ale and just had a piece of toast. She is talkative and moving around. I gave her an old digital thermometer and she is taking everythings temp... She holds it up to my freckle on my arm presses the button, looks at it says thank you mom and goes on her way... That freaked me out, her being so warm like that... I am going to lay down for a bit if possible... Hugs to all

Sick Baby

Rhianna is still sick and not getting better... What didnt last too long with me is sticking with her... I barely slept last night, every time she moved I woke up ready with her bucket... I rolled over just a little while ago to snuggle with her and noticed how warm she is... I took her temp and its 102.6, I gave her some tylenol but she got sick shortly after and I am not sure if it stayed down... Looks like it was bile that she threw up, would i see the purple stuff in the yellow? I am not sure, so I have a cold wash cloth on her head and keeping an eye on her... Doctor should be in at 8:30, if she gets worse though it will be to the er I go...

Open for Business....

Yup, I finally got something listed in my Etsy shop... I am hoping to get a few more things listed soon but right now Rhi is sick so she takes priority ... There is a link on the side to my shop, take a look see what I am up to and creating... Hugs

fun

Recovering Weekend....

Seems some bug is going around... I and hubby felt it on Friday while we were out... I felt like crap we had a lot to do and didnt get 1/2 of it done... I just couldnt deal with shopping, me not able to shop? The world is going to end, lol... So we got at least the things we needed and one present off the list... I felt like crap the rest of the night... I finally fell asleep only to wake up feeling even crappier... I got up to go to the bathroom and felt sick to my stomach, on my way back into the bedroom thank the goddess the garbage pail was in reach... I got sick, I hate getting sick... I didnt have much in my stomach so it hurt to get sick... I spent the rest of the day in bed, feeling like crap but at least I only got sick once... I slept on and off all day... I woke up today feeling so much better... Now Rhianna has it... I felt so bad... she was good most of the day it was when she woke from her nap she came over into my lap telling me it hurts... i was asking her what hurt when i felt her stomach and knew she was going to get sick, hubby got the small pail and she got sick... She seems to be feeling a bit better, got some ginger ale in her and a little bit of toast... Now I just hope emma doesnt get it...

So this weekend not much has been done due to illness... I started getting my cards together and xmas card list started... If you want to exchange cards drop me an email with your address and I will send ya mine... ldydraven(at)yahoo(dot)com. Well going to run...