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You are a Hippie

You are a total hippie. While you may not wear birks or smell of incense, you have the soul of a hippie. You don't trust authority, and you do as you please. You're willing to take a stand, even when what you believe isn't popular. You like to experiment with ideas, lifestyles, and different subcultures. You always gravitate toward what's radical and subversive. Normal, mainstream culture doesn't really resonate with you.

Are You a Hippie?

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Your Sensitivity Score: 73%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

Crazy Tuesday

Woke up to not being able to see out my window... The snow was all ready here at 7am... Thankfully it calmed down but the plow never came up... Emma gave me a heart attack this morning i left the room to get a soda and came back to her and my benadryll bottle with the cap off... I have no idea how many were in there... She wasnt chewing on anything, they are the caplets so i would think if she got it open she would be making faces, i fished my finger in her mouth and then called poison control... After all the times with rhi i got the stickers for the phone so i didnt have to freak out trying to remember the number... So I talked to a very nice paul, he said he didnt think she got anything but we had to watch her... Keep an eye out and call me in an hour... So I watched her and played with her and called an hour and 30 min later and talked to another lady who was very nice and said she didnt think she got anything cause she thinks she would have been sleepy by now but to still keep an eye on her for any odd behavoir... So then I had to go to the docs, it took over a month for this appointment I had to go and have my back looked at... I didnt think my car was going to stop at the bottom, my tires locked and I was terrified, I live off a major road, 18 wheelers are on it... I got control at the very bottom and I told my mom to pray nothing was coming and we were very lucky no one way... I had my babies in the car, now I would have left them at home with my mom but with the incident this morning if emma did need to go to the er I was all ready heading that way... I will never go down my road again in weather like this... So emma took about a 15-20 min nap in the car and has been awake and chatty all day... She did have her lead screening done today which was long over due... I think the whole hospital heard her screaming... She doesnt like people... So on the way home we took it easy, we saw a truck flipped not far from our road, someone driving way to fast for that hill... I dont know why people drive like asses in bad weather... Stupid... My car thank the goddess had no issues getting up the hilll I flew up it and we are home and not going anywhere unless we have too... And I am hoping by the time i have the nerve blocks this weather is gone... ugh

Mid week rambles

This week and last week have just been weird in a way... I cant deal with all the family crap and I really thought about asking hubby if we could move... This way if they called and I got fed up I could hang up or say I had to go... Hell they are too lazy to drive to the other side of the property if we were in another town maybe they would never come to visit... Then I would have to worry though of my mom being a woose and letting my bro and sil move in here and she would be paying the bills for here...

Ive also thought about at times going back to work... I feel bad that all the money responsabilitys fall to hubby but at the same time I love being home with the girls even if there are days I am pulling my hair out... I missed so much with going back to work with Rhi... And it killed me that she would call the babysitter mommy... So we'll see what happens there...

So I have been on an emotional roller coaster as of late... Bad me hasnt been taking her meds but I started them again the other night... I have to remember to get a refill from the doc when i see her tomorrow... I also got to talk to my step bro last night and talking with him puts me in a better mood... Puts things in perspective... My family are nuts...

So i am trying to get my spirit in a good place cause I have things to do... Garnet I havent forgotten about you, I have been researching beads, and styles and sketching out a few things... I just dont like working on the prayer beads when I am in a negative mood... So I havent created much of anything this week, till today I was playing around withe canvas and paint... This is what I cam up with .... I like it better than what I started with....
Its just acrylics, fabric paint and candle gravel...

SIL is a pain

In my ass... I am getting more and more to the point of not being able to stand her... I went by my moms to get my mail and she had to tell me something funny , how her boss told her she needed to watch her mouth or something... He is the guy living at my moms house, guess he never got a chance to see her true colors... But then my mom has to tell me how she puts my sister down and me... I asked her ME? What the fuck is she saying? She tells me something about me not being able to potty train my daughter... Rhi sits on the potty she thinks its a play chair, she has no interest... And I feel a child will do some things when they are ready, the only thing i do is if she wants to sit on it I let her and if I am in there going potty I sit her on hers to show her what to do... But the kicker is I'm not aloud to say anything... My mom doesnt want me to say anything to sil cause it will come back on her... For all my moms bitching she does she is such a chicken shit... She just likes to have something to complain about... So I came home pissed off and upset... I have been on the verge of tears for over an hour... I just want to be able to say something to her, and also say well at least I have my children... She had hers taken away cause she was a drug addict... And she has the nerve to throw stones... I just want to tear her face off... I am so mad I cant think straight... Damn Bitch...

She is fine...

We saw the specialist, they did an ekg and and echo and they both are fine... The doc said she can be a cheerleader, baseball player anything she wants, and her heart is healthy... He said it has to do with the growing body, she is small so things are kinda compact... She will outgrow it in her teens... She did wonderful thru the tests, so off to walmart to get her something for her good job... She got a new barbie... I cant tell you how many she has right now... LOL At least all my hard work on dressing them the other day she hasnt undone... I am happy to report no naked barbies... She does love her mermaid barbie for bath time... Its cute... Well I am going to go relax... Hugs to all

Happy Valentines day

I didnt have any money to go to the store and get hubby a card and I am not brave enough to go to the store and go down the VD isle... So I did the next best thing.. I made hubby a card, i printed off some artwork, made my own pages and I put some mushy words in it, the words to our wedding song and some words to a few other love songs in it... Heres a pic, I think it came out pretty good...

Horrible

What is the the world coming too, when a man in a wheelchair is dumped on the floor by a police officer... And the higher ups knew nothing about it till shown their own security camera... I hope he sues the ass off this department, they deserve it...

Specialist

Well the PA called a little while ago... The Doc doesnt remember sending us to a specialist, I said it was in the hospital we never were sent to anyone... So we have an appointment on friday to see a specialist in pediatric cardiology who is only in the area once a month... He is normally in the buffalo area, looks like he is part of childrens hospital... So even though I have been told its normal, I will be a bit wonky till after the appointment... But at least we dont have to wait till next month to see someone... Hubby already put in for the day off... Just wondering if should see if his sister would be home to maybe watch emma? So this way can devote the time to rhianna , not sure what they are going to have to do for/to her... Hmmm, will think on it... Going to snuggle up to my babies...

Three year wellness visit

This was for Rhi, everything was going good until the PA asked me if she had a heart murmur ... I told her she had one when she was born and they told me it was closing up and by the time we left i think it was gone or it was gone by her one week visit... Now three years later someone is hearing it... ? Is this something to worry about, she said it sounded like a normal murmur but why in three years has no one heard anything and there is no notes in her visits in the last three years of the regular doctor hearing it... So now I will be a bit stressed until I hear from her tomorrow after she talks to the regular doctor... And then who knows what my stress level will be like... I am a worry wort... Plus I am a bit annoyed I think that this wasnt caught sooner... But I will wait to see what is found out....

happy birthday

My little Rhianna turned three yesturday...

TV

Nothing on to watch... I hate when there is nothing on tv to watch... Hubby put on one of the hdtv stations to ask WHY? It was a concert for amy winehouse...I told him I dont know why, I think she sucks too... And changed the channel...

Rambles

Lets see.... After the ice storm it got warm and it all went away till yesterday, it came back... Hubby said the ride to work wasnt too bad, good areas and bad...

In family news, they are trying to drive me nuts I swear... My brother is on my shit list, what else is new... lets see his wifes boss is getting a divorce and cant stand to live with his mom so she mentions it to my mom and asks if he can live there for a few MONTHS, not weeks MONTHS... He will be paying some sort of rent... My mom is a place for strays, animals and human... I was so pissed off when i found this out and I think my sil has something going on with this guy, just a feeling both hubby and I get... I mentioned this to my brother that i wasnt happy with this and he needs to knock it off, he then blames his wife... I swear my brother had his nuts removed when he got married... He said he didnt care for this person didnt really trust him and now he is living in my moms house with my brother and sil... WTF And remember awhile back me mentioning my brother not willing to put my mom on his cell phone plan? Recap, mom wanted a cell phone for emergencys, asked brother he and his gf now wife said no... He goes and puts her one son who is under 10 on the cell plan, she doesnt have custody of her kids her mom does... Her mom lets her son borrow the phone and he runs up a couple of hundred dollars that i think they had to pay cause they couldnt get the money out of him... So the phone gets taken away... Now sil cousin needs a cell phone and they put her on the plan... WTF What about your own mother... I am sure her cousin will fuck her over and run a nice bill up and I will just laugh when it happens... I havent seen my brother or sil to tell them what i think of this one... My mom was nice enough to get me and hubby a cell contract cause our credit sucks and I didnt think twice about it I put my mom on our plan and WE pay her 20.00 bill every month... (lets not forget I do nothing for my mom)... My mom car wasnt starting either, and she asked me if she could borrow it, I gave her the keys the night before so she could just come over and take it... She doesnt want to ask my brother he always gives her a hard time... Hell she needed matches for something and he was being cheap about it couldnt spare the 5 bucks for the box... And I dont ask my mom for gas money when i take her someplace or have her put gas in my car... My brother would have his hand out if it was his car but he would not reach in his pocket if it was moms car... He bitches about living there and I told him the other day move out, you could have lived on your own for some time but you had to buy a 17,000.00 car... Nice to know where your prioritys are... You moved back in with mom so you could get your fancy little car, and not pay rent or anything cheap MF... Can ya tell he is a sore spot with me...

Ok something funny now... We have nights where hubby has to sleep on the couch is usually when the kids are sick or sleep schedule is off... That was this week, emma was running a fever again, more teeth coming in... And Rhi is a night owl again... Hubby was trying to sleep in our room I left the room for something... Rhi comes in the room and cant just climb into bed its over hubby she climbs... so he has her climbing over him to get to my side... Then emma comes into the room with a tube in her mouth that makes noises and right in hubbys face, doo doo doo doo... hubby comes in laughing i cant sleep in our room he is laughing, thank the goddess... I had a good chuckle about it myself... Kids are funny....

Funny

This was too funny I'm F*cking Matt

Ice, Ice and more Ice....!

We are getting nailed with a crappy storm... Hubby had to go out early this morning and glad he came back when he did, he said the roads were crap... With that i went to call my moms, no one is home... Call the cell no answer and finally got my brother on his cell... She had a doc appointment and left there at 20 to 12, it was now almost one when I got this news... So where the hell is she... No clue... Finally I thought I heard something and I opened the bedroom window to hear a car skidding and tires spinning then my cell rings, its my mom, she is 300 feet from the top and cant get the rest of the way up can hubby come get her... i told her i will send him and see what he can do but his car will not make it since when he came home it took him two tries to get up the hill at this time there was no way he was getting up... I just looked out the window and see hub and mom, he is walking her up which it sucks cause she has been sick and she cant breath good as it is... Nothing as good as having a lung issuse with asthma, copd and what ever eles oh and she smokes on top of this... Cant get the woman to quit... I am a bit pissed off at her for even going out, she knew the weather was shitty why did she not turn around and come home and where the hell has she been all this time hubby had a shopping bag on his arm... She doesnt want to be treated like a child but sometimes she really acts like one...

And just so you can get an idea of what it looks like out there I will post a pic I took from my bedroom window... I can hear the ice cracking on the branches as the trees sway... I pray we dont loose power that would really suck since everything is electric...