Family Drama

Here we go again it seems... More drama with my brother and his crazy wife... What started this one out was that my mom wont co-sign for a loan for sil for 6,000.00... So she got all bent out of shape saying that my family doesnt want to help her yada yada... Lets start with the simple part, my brother and she have shitty credit so if they default on it my mom then has to be responsible for it and she is 68 and on a limited income... Then there is their track record in paying my mom back which most times was never and when they lived with my mom twice they freeloaded off of her and then when they moved out cleaned out food and other things so why the hell would my mom do it... I told her not to do it and stick to her guns cause she will get fucked in the end... Also why would mom take out a loan for sil when she and my brother fight all the time.. they have the crappiest marriage going and why they got married I will never know... And I told my brother not to have a baby with her but he did, but then there is still the chance the baby is not his, another long story... I dont feel sorry for my brother, he was warned before he got married and his friends kept asking him if he was sure... Everyone knew it was a mistake... I dont feel sorry for him cause he stays... You can give him all the advice in the world but then he will yes you to death and do what he wants in the end... I know he needs to learn from his mistakes but come on, enough is enough... And with all the fighting they do sil is constantly kicking him out... So again why would my mom take out a loan for them... And I am so sick of them using that mom took out a loan for me and has helped me in the past... She lent me the money to pay off a credit card and I paid it all back, she took out a loan so I could get a car and I paid that all back... And I pay back other stuff and when we can afford it we have given my mom money to just help her get by... What has my brother and sil done, squat... I really wish she would loose it in front of me so i can tell her were to stick it... Its so annoying to hear all this and never get to see it first hand and not be able to say anything to her... UGH....

holyclothig design contest finals

I entered a contest for holy clothing and one of my designs made the finals. Its number 2 so stop on by and vote for me please...

Too early?

I thought it would be too early to take a pregnancy test. Hubby and I wanted to try for one more but we werent even trying lol. Took a test on sunday after talking about it the day before and I didnt finish peeing and it had two lines on it... PREGNANT... Looks like I am due at the end of June...I know I conceived, our 6 year wedding anniversary 12 total years together...LOL I have a doctors appointment on friday to do their pee test and then start setting up appointments...This will be weird for me, pregnant thru the winter... At least i'll be warm lol... I am excited and the girls keep asking when the baby is coming, they dont understand it takes time to grow...

Too cool

This is so amazing and I am so happy for Kat, stop by her blog http://www.mysinglemomlife.com and watch the today show tomorrow ....

New totebag

Playing around with some new fabric I got at walmart...

Worried....

I spent most of my day at the ER with my brother...His marriage is getting worse, one minute things are fine next minute she is telling my brother to get out. He said he couldnt take it anymore and mentioned killing himself. I dont think he would really do it I think it was more frustration than anything... But he drove himself to the hospital and I met him there.. We met with a counselor talked about things and got some things out. He needed someone to talk to that wasnt family. He is at my moms right now and she doesnt want him back. She says he cheated on her, he says he didnt and I believe him. On the other hand I dont think she has been faithful, I think she has someone on the side all ready and thats why she has been acting the way she has. Tomorrow we are going to the court house to get a public defender and put the paper work thru to have the baby tested to make sure he is my brothers. I know this is bad but I am so hoping he is not my brothers so he can walk away from her and have no ties, cause she will take my brother for whatever she can get out of him. So I am hoping the baby isnt his, he needs to be out of this toxic relationship...

Sheriff at my door....

At 7:30 this morning I had a Sheriff at my door... I was having a heart attack as to why, she was looking for my brother... To serve him child support papers and custody papers, thing about that is he is still living with his wife... A few weeks ago my brother and his wife got into a fight... My brother lied about who he was on the phone with to his wife... He does these stupid things so he doesnt have to fight with his wife and it blows up in his face... So she finds out who he is on the phone with, accuses him of cheating on him the whole nine yards and goes as far as filing abandonment papers and custody papers saying my brother no longer lives there. He never left and i told the sheriff he hasnt left the residence and he never abandoned them. It is such a mess, a damn soap opera. My sil is so insecure and always is accusing my brother of cheating on her, and he hasnt he loves his wife why i have no idea with all the fighting they do... And now they have a child, what a mess... Heres a good one though, right before the wedding my sil cheated on my brother with this person K. She never told my brother and at one point my brother and his wife were living with my mom again and my sil talks my mom into letting one of her friends move in cause he has no place to go... The person was K, she still didnt tell my brother what she had done... About three months of them living all under the same roof it comes out what they did... I cant even find a word as to what I think of the whole situation. I am glad I dont have a marriage like theirs cause i would probably go insane... Why they got married i have no idea and i even asked my brother are you sure... I know he wanted to wait longer before getting married but he felt pressured and now they have a kid... One day its I dont want to have a kid with her to be tied to her forever if it doesnt work out and then its I want to have a child and they did but there is the little voice nagging saying to me "is it really his?" What a fuckin mess

too cute

I woke up to this so had to get the camera real quick... How cute is this...

New pic

Here is a pic of me with my nephew at my 40th bday party....

Rest In Peace....

I wasnt going to watch but I put CNN on, it still hasnt sunk in that he is gone... I hope you find peace MJ, a place where you can be happy and away from all the blood suckers and people who wanted to use you... Goddess bless

My new toy

Hubby got me a netbook for my birthday, I have been looking at them and thought it would be a good thing for when I do photo sessions and want to bring a computer with me. Its such a pain in the butt to have to carry around one of my other monsters... This one has a ten in. screen. Here is a pic of it next to my reg laptop, isnt it cute lol..

New pic

I thought I would share a recent photo of me wearing a new necklace I made...

Jaggar

Meet my brothers little boy... Jaggar..

Little guy is here

At 7:15 am today 7 lbs 2 oz and 20.5 in long little jagger came into the world by c-section... SIL was trying for a vaginal birth but mom said the babys heartbeat started to slow and that SIL was starting to bleed? I will get all the details tomorrow, I was going to go to see them tonight but a migraine has started so took my meds and I cant drive on them.... brightest blessings everyone

Waiting

My sister in law is 4cm so my nephew should be born today or tomorrow?

Hiya

Its been awhile since I posted any kind of update on me so lets see.... I have something wrong with my wrist and arm... Not sure what I did at first they thought carpal tunnel but the rehab lady said no, then she thought tendonitis but after a week and going back she doesnt think its that either... It hurts a lot, typing for long periods is hard and when it hurts I have to wear a hard splint so that makes typing even harder...Its in my wrist and the pain can go into my hand a bit but mostly it goes up my wrist and up my arm... i also have a numb spot on my wrist, no idea why it did that and I baffle the rehab lady... Then last night while trying to let the dog in my foot got caught on the gate and I fell down, banging my knee its all black and blue and hurt, I fell on the bad arm and I went face first down and wacked my nose... Didnt break it but it hurts...

my mom hasnt been feeling good she thought she pulled something in her shoulder and on easter we went to the er... They in turn thought it was her heart, so many tests later and a hospital stay they had her come back for a stress test and then yesterday I took her to a heart hospital for them to put a catheter up her leg into her heart to get a better look after all the stress of that and worrying we got the news her heart is fine, she has normal build up I guess but nothing that will require her to have any kind of heart procedure...

Yesterday was just crap for me , having to get up at 4:30am driving almost 2 hours mom stressing closer we got that we werent going the right way... lost my cell phone, running all over the hospital retracing my steps, big hospital, to stop by the desk after all that to find someone turned it in... Then I lost a strand of pray beads, and then the fall that night...

So a lot has been going on past couple of weeks so if i have been scarce or havent commented or done something or not have done something I have been a little preoccupied and a little forgetful so i hope you can forgive me...

Paying it forward

Jenn at Feeling Geeky is having a contest to Pay it Forward ... Go by her site to see about the details and enter this great contest...

For fun

Your fairy is called Oak Reedshimmer

She is a panpipe player and enchantment singer.

She lives in forests of oak and lime trees.

She is only seen when the first flowers begin to blossom.

She decorates herself with leaves and berries. She has gentle green butterfly wings.

Get your free fairy name here!

**Edit** found this at rabid reflections I dont always get to finish my post with having two kids

UBP

A little about me and my family... I am a SAHM since having my second child... I have two little girls Rhianna (4) and Emma (2) and we are trying to have a third child... This is the first time I havent had an outside job but I love staying home with my girls... I had to go back to work after my first and I hated being away from her and missing things so I am happy to be able to stay home plus we would be using my pay check to pay for daycare so whats the point... We have one dog and three cats and whatever lives in the woods around our house... I am a crafty person I love to make things and one of these days I will get my etsy store off the ground... I am happily married we have been together dating and married for over 10+ years and I couldnt imagine my life without him... Why am I doing the ultimate blog party, to meet people... I love to read blogs and get to know people... My step brother laughed when he read my blog... He said "most people go to therapy, You write to the world" I have kept journals since 17 years old and blogging to me is like my journals and this way I get to meet people and get advice or support etc... I have been blogging since 2000 or 2001 I forget... but not earlier or later than that... I found out about the UBP from Jenn at Feeling geeky I go by the name Draven and have even been thinking of changing my name to it... So there's a bit about me... They even have prizes here are a few I would love to win
2 — Bracelet Provided by: Sydney Andrews
9 — Child’s Crayon Apron with Crayons
11 — Aromatherapy book and a sampler of therapeutic essential oils.
13 — Scrapbook Photo Box
17 — Fire polished Czech Bead Bracelet (sized to fit) and Pierced Earring
26 — $30 gift certificate to Target
Come join the party...

More of my girls

My girlies

Facebook

Hey was just wondering who was on facebook cause I've been trying to get into it and its helped me find people i lost touch with... So if you want to look me up or add me or have me add you just search for draven moon...

usa today article

Usatoday
This came in from one of my groups thought i would share... there is also a video about wicca a positive light...

Rude?

I told my brother that if no one else was having a baby shower for his wife that I would have it... Not many people like her and she doesnt have the best friends... So I get an email saying she all ready has invites she is going to make them out and send them out... Okay.... I'm the one throwing it but she is buying the invites and sending them out... Fine... She also narrowed it down to two days that was good for her... Then I told my mom I had no idea who she invited cause she never told me, well I got the list the other day... She invited 42 people... HELLO there is no way my house can hold that many... Her logic the more she invites the more presents she will get for the baby... I find that rude... But I am really bothered by how many people she invited... I'm not rich... Only my hubby is working so I wasnt going to go broke to have this thing... I feel she took no consideration on what this would put on me... I think she is taking advantage of the situation as well... And I havent said anything to her or my brother... I did tell him how many people she invited he had no idea... My brother made an offer to help back when I was playing around with hosting this and I told him we would see, well I will be asking for help... I am just bothered by this whole thing... More and more I see her as having no class what so ever... Am I wrong to be bothered by this?

Elements and books

Here are some drawings I have been working on... and a few pics of the books i have been making....

Am I ?

Weird? Sometimes I think of the things I like to do, or make and I think I am weird... lol My latest fun thing for me is making books... I took the paper from an old sketch pad and folded them in half an made covers for them... I have made a few different types... One is the simple punch holes and put in posts and there ya have a book... Today I tried my hand at sewing the pages and then gluing a cover to it... Hubby was looking at me like I was nuts when I started on book two in front of him, till I showed him the book I made this afternoon... He was impressed but thinks I am nuts at the same time... I feel odd a lot of the times... I like to make things, collect things... I dont think anyone understands me, hell sometimes I dont understand myself lol... I just have the urge to create... To learn new things, be obsessive at times when i first start learning new things and then I tapper off... Hubby might not always understand my creative side but he accepts me for who I am if that makes sense... Which is good cause things would be so much more frustrating if he didnt... He loves me the way I am says I make things interesting... My step dad used to say I make things fun cause I am different and I look at things differently... who knows... At times I think I am just compulsive in some of the things I do... Oh well back to gluing book number two so to finish it before I go to bed... brightest blessings to all...

Economic Stimulus

Taken from Salem....

Subject: Economic Stimulus Payment

This year, taxpayers will receive an Economic Stimulus Payment.
This is a very exciting new program that I will explain using the Q and A format:
Q. What is an Economic Stimulus Payment?
A. It is money that the federal government will send to taxpayers.
Q. Where will the government get this money?
A. From taxpayers.
Q. So the government is giving me back my own money?
A. Only a smidgen.
Q. What is the purpose of this payment?
A. The plan is that you will use the money to purchase a high-definition TV set, thus stimulating the economy.
Q. But isn't that stimulating the economy of China ?
A. Shut up.
Below is some helpful advice on how to best help the US economy by spending your stimulus check wisely:

If you spend that money at Wal-Mart, all the money will go to China.
If you spend it on gasoline it will go to the Arabs.
If you purchase a computer it will go to India.
If you purchase fruit and vegetables it will go to Mexico, Honduras, and Guatemala (unless you buy organic).
If you buy a car it will go to Japan.
If you purchase useless crap it will go to Taiwan.
And none of it will help the American economy. We need to keep that money here in America. You can keep the money in America by spending it at yard sales, going to a baseball game, or spend it on prostitutes, beer and wine (domestic ONLY), or tattoos, since those are the only businesses still in the US.

Friends...

I’ve been feeling a bit down today… Been thinking about things that bother me from time to time… I recently started using my facebook account and I found a few friends from my past… One we will just call R… We had been friends for such a long time and then after my wedding poof, gone… I had called her, left messages on answering services, with her mom, I even sent a few letters and nothing back… I have to say it bothers me a lot… But what else can I do… If I was back home I would confront her to see what was going on… Did I do something wrong, I asked her in my letters if I did do something wrong to at least tell me… I really have no clue… We met in the 4^th grade and have been friends all this time… We never had to talk all the time or write all the time, the friendship was always there… I asked her to be in my wedding and she told me she had to get back to me cause another relative was getting married and she had to check with that person… I never heard anything… I’m not one to be a pain in the ass about it… I ask you, I felt the rest was up to her specially when she told me she had to get back to me… So I took it as she couldn’t… So I just sent her an invitation and I get a call tell me she would have to let me know cause her and her boyfriend were planning a vacation… I got my response card back a few days later saying she couldn’t make it… I was hurt… A family wedding planned prior to mine is one thing… A vacation that she wasn’t sure of sounded more like an excuse… Maybe its my creative imagination but I just feel like back in high school… She married someone we went to school with which brought her back to those circles we used to be in… By the way I was not invited to the wedding… That was another sting… Was it again something I did or the friends she now keeps that she was embarrassed to let them know she was friends with me… ? If that’s the case I guess all those years of friendship ment nothing? So many unanswered questions that unless she writes back I will never know… She was one of the last people I ever expected this kind of behavior… I don’t think I was ever one of her best friend but I considered her one of mine… The other is my friend K who I have been friends with longer than R… Even after all that’s been said, I still miss her and would love to talk to her to understand it all… maybe someday…..

This is not starting out good...

2009 is not going too good... We are nine days into the new year and on day 8 my furnace wouldn't stay lit, so i called for someone to come out take a look and he condemned the furnace... Which means we need a new one... It's 20 degrees right now, we are trying to heat the house best we can with electric heaters... The gas company doesn't do payment plans so mom had to put 2,700.00 on her credit card that we will make payments to her... They don't do payments anymore due to the recession.... Thanks a lot mr fuckwad president cant wait to you are out of office... I have faith in the new guy coming in... I hope he can help our country from what fuckwad did to it... So I am depressed, hubby is depressed, maybe some day we will get ahead... Oh well Happy Fuck'n New Year....

2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!