Family sucks

At times they suck royally... I can not wait for my brother and his wife to move out... I think they have 3 more weeks and will be gone and maybe we can all move on and have better relationships... I get a phone call today from my brother telling me that I am probably going to need to come over and get in between him and kevin (the guy that they asked my mom if she could put a roof over his head)... He tells me kevin is getting in the middle of shit and causing problems and my brother thinks kevin and he are going to go to blows... Now let me tell you this was not something i wanted to hear at this time cause I just took a migraine pill and I was trying to get rid of it... This did not help matters cause it just gets my blood pumping... My brother seems to think he is the wounded party and he is not... He tells me that my mom needs to respect his wife and I lost it... I told him why when she has no respect for mommy... He starts to rant about something and I just chewed him a new ass... I told him well maybe your wife needs to respect mom, instead she is packing things up that do not belong to her... Going through the cabnits and packing up food that mommy bought and hiding it... So dont tell me about respect... You moved back in with mommy cause you knew you could fuck her over... You can move out and pay 300 bucks a month but when living with mom you couldnt afford to give her 50 bucks a month... He starts to tell me he was trying to get caught up on bills blah blah blah, I told him right you moved back in so you could fuck mommy over, get a free ride... And if he was so worried about getting caught up maybe he shouldnt have bought that damn car, and if he had no money then how was he buying stuff to add to this new car and again if he had no money then how has he gone away at least twice in the last two months? I wish I would have remembered that when i was on the phone with him , But I did say plenty and he was not happy... He thought he would call me and I would be on his side... I cant wait for them to get out... To leave... I told my mom he is not coming back and if we have to do the move next week swapping houses we will do it... My mom was so upset the other day she had chest pains... Last night she was upset she was dizzy and was scared but instead layed down... He is not going to put her in the hospital, i will kick his ass to china before that happens... I had kevin come over so I could get his phone #... Then we had a talk... He says he would not do anythign to my brother... The only problem he has with my brother is that he does not help my mom, he does not pay her a damn thing... And what little food they did bring into the house they are going to take with them... I'm sorry they should be grateful and leave at least half of the stuff ... Oh he also had the nerve to call me the other night for ketchup, they had none in the house... What my sil decided not to mention was that she packed up all the extra ketchup to take with them my mom found them in the boxes and bags she packed up... She didnt even pay for the ketchup... So i got ketchup yesturday when i was out, kmart had 10 for 10 so I gave my mom 5 bottles... I am so sick of their shit.. My brother tells me oh me and candis help mommy out mommy wanted her hair dyed and candis did it for her, I then told him oh yeah she did and then a few days later she threw it in mommys face... A favor is not something you make a tally of to throw in someones face latter on... I dont know where my brother got this opinion he is better than everyone and he does so much he is the laziest fuck unless its for him... He borrows from me and never repays back but if I need to borrow something I am reminded that I have to pay him back... I can not tell you the thousands of dollars my mom has put out to help my brother with things and he hasnt even made a dent in paying her back and to even get a dime out of him is to fight him tooth and nail to get it... They need to get out and stay out... My mom cant take it anymore and frankly neither can I...

Addition to the family

Here's Polly the newest addition to our family... She is a border colllie mix, isnt she cute....

my girls

Cool bag

I got this bag on etsy... It's the coolest tote bag I have found so far... Its all these pockets inside, 8 of them... If you knit, or draw, or paint there are these long pockets on the side... then 6 pockets on the inner flap which zips back up and then has two inner pockets that dont unzipp which you can put books, sketchpads, craft stuff, use it as a baby bag, knitting bag etc... very cool bag... AbbyRoo
You can find her on Etsy...

Happy bday to me....

Where does the time go? I can't believe I turned 39... I don't feel it and been told I dont look it, thank the goddess.... I had a nice quiet day... We even had awesome thunder and lightening storms (I love storms)... The rain came down in buckets and the wind was just whipping around... But the best part is it cooled things off, its 1:15 am and its down to 57... The last few nights have not been this nice... My a/c is getting a break... So back to the bday, Hubby got me a cake, cards from him and the girls, I got new perfume, princess by vera wang, the movie jumper, and the three stephenie meyer books I didnt have... I only had twilight, so now I have all the ones in that series and her new one and mom will get me the new one in august when that comes out... I got tires for my jeep but I dont think that was a bday present lol... I also got corel paint shop pro photo, which i love... And a drawing tablet that I have yet to mess around with... I got these before my bday... There are other little things too but I think the best part of today was eating birthday cake in bed with my girls...

Too damn HOT....

I don't know how I am going to make it through summer with the weather this crappy... It's too hot for my liking... So I spent my day in the back part of the house with the a/c going... Hubby went out did what he wanted, got something for us to eat and is playing evercrack in the other room...

Been thinking about getting a dog... Rhianna loves animals, specially dogs... We have watched underdog the movie I dont know how many times cause it has dogs... She loves the dog polly, but I'm not sure of getting a cocker spaniel... Hubbys sister knows of someone with a border collie mix, they seem like a good dog and cute... So we shall see...

Been trying to let the creative part of me come out but I am having a tough time... I want to make something jewelry wise but my muse is in hiding I think... It sucks, I am so frustrated... So I am siting here with beads all over the bed trying to let them talk to me in what they would like me to make them into... I have these great mama beads I want to make something with... I am working with wise mama but not getting too far... ugh...

In other news I turn 39 on Tuesday... Just to look at the number 39 is weird... I dont feel it, thank the goddess... Hubby asked me what I wanted for my bday why is it so hard to think of things you like on your birthday and christmas... I always draw a blank, but if we were just looking or had no money I am sure I could find many things I would like... But now I'm like dugh... Drives me nuts... I'll have to have hubby get a small cake cause Rhi wants to blow candles out... She wanted to know where grandma's bday cake was when we were there, it was cute...

Well going to go see what the little monsters are doing and see if my muse will visit...

Happy weekend everyone, hugs and love....

Dazed and Confused....

Thats how I have been feeling lately... Hubbys sister just found out this past week that her husband has been cheating on her with a 22 year old... I still cant believe it... He was the last person I ever thought would do something like this... They have been together a really long time, got married finally about 2 years ago and have two beautiful children... When I saw my MIL she said they were going to try and work things out but when his other sister was over she told me its still kinda iffy... Sounds like he wants his cake and eat it too... Says he wants to work it out but then says things like I havent told her yet that its over and then makes other comments to sil like well if things dont work or if you dont come back do you have a place to go? Hubbys other sister is hoping he just tells her its over so S can get on with her life... I think its just going to be a big mess and even if they do work things out I can never look at him in the same light... I was glad that S told her MIL and FIL what their son did... Just shows you can be religious as you want but that doesnt mean your a good person... Ive always kept my beliefs to myself in fear of being preached to... I did however tonight come out of the closet to his other sister, but she all ready knew... So that feels good that I dont have to hide things from her... I just dont understand the whole cheating thing, its one thing to do when your dating but after your married its different... I think its like what will smith said in todays society there are too many outs, like divorce... Take away the outs dont go into well if it doesnt work we can always get divorced... I know there are exceptions for that like abuse, etc... I think people forget that people grow, and change and when they change people cant except the different person... I dont know anymore, I just hope this whole thing isnt as messy as i feel its going to be...

Fun contest

Kat on my single mom life is having a contest for Mad Money check it out and enter...

Day Dreaming

This is where we live right now... We are hoping to be swapping houses with my mom in the near future, my brother just needs to get his act together and move out with his wife and we will move... Right now they are living with my mom driving her nuts...






This is the house we are hoping to be in, would be nice if it was by winter time... We need the room... The kids need the room... They would have a whole room for a toy area... A huge living room to run around it... So many possibilities...

Waiting for the other shoe to drop....

I have a damn headache now... My brother called me telling me my mom is wigging out over a sweatshirt she says is hers and sil says she bought... Problem living in a house with other people and buying secondhand clothes is things get mixed up... It was a 5 dollar shirt who the hell cares... Sil says my mom can have the shirt (didnt say it she says and shove it up her ass)... My mom says its my sisters and that my mom bought it for her... Sil says she lent it to my sister once when she was cold... My brother is wigging out and calls me... I told him ya know what you moved back in to save money, get your fuck'n act together and move out... You and mom can not live under the same roof anymore... Get out... He moved in with mom cause he knew he could cheat her out of money... Its true my mom and he cant live together...My mom can live with anyone cause no one lives up to her standards... They cant do anything right and never do enough... Granted my brother doesnt do anything but growing up i could never live up to my mothers standards... When she and the family went away and i stayed home i would spend the day before cleaning the house top to bottom and she always found fault... I could have hired pro's to clean the house and it would never be good enough... And my mom doesnt remember everything she buys... I had a fight years ago about a pair of shoes that she said where hers and I said they were mine she bought me my own... She argued and argued finally i threw the shoes at her and said take them... Well after she got off her high horse she went to her closet and found her pair... She never apologized but she doesnt remember everything she buys and i can say that cause i have been there... I am waiting for her to call me and bitch about it... Who knows if she is home or calling my sister to find out who's shirt it is... So damn stupid...

Wanting to die?

Thats how I felt with the migraine i woke up with... it was bad... I took two lortab when i woke up and that didnt even touch it... so then i took my migraine meds one then another one two hours later and still nothing and then the throwing up started and that didnt even help just made things worse... Finally i broke down and had mom take me to the er while hubby stayed with the girls... I am finally feeling better... I got pain meds, stuff for my stomach and fluids... guess i was a bit dehydrated... They could have stuck me with whatever they wanted as long as the pain stopped... I hate when they are that bad... Its like loosing a day with my family cause i cant function... Hubby is just the best, he took care of the girls, washed the floors, did laundry cleaned up... I am so lucky to have a husband like him... I love him to pieces... Oh well I am going to relax... hugs to all

New Love

Is banging out metal... Ive been waiting to get a block so I can bang out metal but I couldnt wait any longer I wanted to play around so I took two hammers one for banging and the other to put the metal on, works just fine till I can get what I want... Think I might actually get an anvil instead so I have thinner surfaces... But here is something that I did last night, not done with it but got the major parts done... I take a strip of metal weave it around in different squiggles and then hammer it out by its self... I found this way to work better...Bang out the circle then the squiggle then put it together... So I made a bunch of different size circles and ovals... Its so much fun, Joy you were right I love doing this...

Watching

I like to be quiet and sneak up on my girls and watch them play... Sometimes together other times when they are by themselves... I just love the imagination and the facial expressions they have... To see their minds at 3 and 1 at work... I find them amazing every day... It still baffles me at times that we made them... I carried them for 9 months and then brought them into the world... I dont think anything has been as amazing as them coming into our lives... I hope I do a good job raising them and they turn out to be good people... My little miracles... I remember how terrified I was to have the first one, my doc asked me if anything was wrong and I told her I was terrified to give birth... She giggled at me and said it will be ok and she has to come out sometime she cant stay in there... I was so scared that I couldnt handle a regular birth, yes I was induced but still she was coming out the way the goddess intended and that scared the living crap out of me... I made sure my doc knew I wanted an epidural and even then it didnt take it all away... I had horrible back labor... Hubby was amazing, there by my side, holding my hand feeding me ice chips, telling me she is almost here and when i thought i couldnt go on he told me he could see the head, almost done your doing great and then I felt the rush of her break thru and I felt her squirm and I was amazed... I did it, we did it and she was ok... I remember telling hubby I didnt think I could do that again but that didnt last long I wanted to give my baby girl someone to play with grow up with and expericence life with... Someone she could say, "she or he did it"... Now I have two beautiful girls and belive it or not I would like one more... I think I am up to 3-4 months of morning sickness, back pain, migraines from hell, swollen ankles, hot flashes and everything eles to bring one more miracle into the world and into our lives...

Pendants

Here are some new things I have been working on...