Cooler

And I hope it lasts... Its kinda cloudy and over cast today and raining on and off but its been cooler than the last few days... I want fall weather, I dont want summer weather... Well I got my nose pierced today... I went there yesterday and they were closed... So packed up the kids again today and went back to the shop, but I did call just to make sure they were open and that someone would be there to do piercings... It wasnt as bad as I thought it could have been... I think it was more uncomfortable when they have to flare up your nose with the clamp... So I have a cute little purple stud... Rhi keeps looking at it and wants to keep touching it... I love it... Other than that we didnt do much today... We went and got french fries after since Rhi was so good at the place and then we came home, snuggled and took a nap...

When hubby got home we finally watched knocked up... Its cute... Oh well off to bed...

Weekend rap up

Well yesterday was pagan pride day in rochester so after being lazy all morning I decided I wanted to go... I was a bit disappointed, two vendors that were there last year werent there this year, and last year there were more people there and it was raining... This year it was sunny and not a lot of people... We didnt stay very long either... The one friend I was hoping to see I didnt... Did run into someone eles I know... So I got 3 books, the celtic book of seasonal meditations by claire hamilton, Healing with flower and gemstone essences and healing with gemstones and crystals by diane stein and 4 art prints by jessica galbreth... We then went to the joanns etc... Their bead section has grown since the last time I had been there... We went to target as well just to browse... I got the cutest coffee mug, its a cauldron... I love it, I might have to get another one just to have a back up... We then came home I was getting tired and my back was bothering me...

Today was one of our nephews bday party, I was not up to sitting on hard benches, so me and emma stayed home... I then noticed flea's on my bed... So much for taking it easy... I stripped my bed, rhi's bed, got all the blankets and anything that has touched the floor and put it out in the mudroom to be washed.... I then vacuumed the beds, floors, sofa, chairs, etc... I will be hurting tomorrow... I have gotten one cat bathed, two are outside and I cant get them in yet... They will be getting a bath as well... So rowena kitty is giving me the evil eye right now... She is not happy with me...

Got a message from mil, sil will be having a c-section on friday if the baby doesnt turn by then... She thinks she might have turned but I dont know how many times I thought that with emma...

Well going to see if next load of laundry needs to go in... Toodles for now...

Update on SIL

Sil didnt have to wait until thursday, she called and was able to get the ultrasound done on wednesday... Mil called me that night to tell me... The baby looks good but is breach, she isnt loosing fluid but i guess with the way the baby is she really doenst have alot of room... Havent heard yet on what they are going to do, wait and see if she turns or if she will be taken early by c-section... With the position the baby is in straight up, with one arm up I dont see how she will turn but things can happen... Again mil talked about how much we dont like this doctor, she was telling sil that the baby was head down and in the right position... ? At least if she has a c-section this doctor will not be doing it... So still waiting to see what will be done but at least we know the baby is ok...

Prayers...

I just got off the phone with my mother in law, she doesnt want us to worry but wanted to let us know that sil that is pregnant and due oct 3 has to go for an ultrasound on thursday... She hasnt gained any weight and her uterus hasnt gotten any bigger... It could be nothing, or it could be complications... Both mil and me dont know why they are waiting till thursday... The doc could hear her heartbeat... We dont like her doctor... Didnt like her the first time, and I dont like her still... My doc would have had this all ready done... I am just hoping everything is ok...

pretty kitty...

Posting this for Salem....

Issues

We are having phone issues, so that means internet issues as well, we have no phone at all and internet is spotty i can get on for a few min if i reboot the modem, makes no sense... So if you dont see me for a day or two ya know why... I will be back as soon as i can...

It's Official

My sister is finally divorced from the sperm doner (sp)... She finally did it and I am so proud of her... I feel like baking a cake and celebrating... lol Funny thing is her ex kept on saying you aren't divorcing me, I don't believe you... He will get his official papers either today or tomorrow... Ha... I am so happy...

Stressful...

Yesturday had a lovely day out with the kids and hubby... We went by the mall and got haircuts, then hubby got me some fabric from joann's and a jacket from old navy that i have wanted... We then got something to eat and then headed to Sams club to get some needed things, we like to buy diapers , wet wipes , paper plates, etc in bulk...

It was such a nice day till I got home and called my mom... She was in tears again... My brother and his wife were fighting again... I could hear them screaming while i was talking to my mom... It is insane how they fight, they should have NEVER have gotten married... We asked him over and over again are you sure? He thought getting married would make it better... He looks to everything else to make it better, thought getting married would make it better, thinks by taking to me i can fix it, thinks starting to go to church will fix things, thinks money will make them happy... He is living in a dream world and i told him he was... Time to grow up and be an adult...

The fight started with bro trying to get the kids to pick up after themselves, these kids have had no structure in their lives so when asked to do anything its like pulling teeth... but instead of standing by my brother , sil wants to look like the good one to these kids so she lets them walk all over my brother... and my brother is feed up, he feels like he opens himself up to these kids and they just cut him down... Now my brother is not perfect, but he took these kids on, got them things they never had before, gave them a home where they could feel safe... I told him they are messed up and dont expect miracles, their mom is a drug addict and who knows what they have seen...

So then my brother and sil start to argue and then my moms dog goes after their dog... Now the last time they lived with my mom she told them NO when they wanted to get a dog, what made this time any different... They just ignored her wishes and tried to make it seem like a good deed cause they got him from a shelter... So now my mom is being made to get rid of her dog... I told my brother last night you were wrong to bring that animal in this house and if anyone is to get rid of an animal its you... he agreed but if sil has anything to say it wont happen... Puppy can be a bit snippy, he is part lab and a very hyper dog but i would rather deal with him than that spitful mini dobby they have... My mom has alot of animals, three dogs of her own and i lost track of cats, her animals dont like coming home since this dog has come into the house...

So my brother tried to hug sil and give her a kiss and she pushed him away and my brother kept trying to force his affections on her, well sil took this as he was choking her and one of the kids decked my brother in the eye... Sil every time my brother and he fight he is trying to kill her...

Now the girl that hit my brother she is a little nut, i told her she had no business getting in their fight, well it started over me so it was my place, no it wasnt... And you had no right hitting him... This kid is famous for when not getting her way calling cps... She has also tried jumping out of moving vehicles and has used the "im going to kill myself " line... When she does that he takes her to the psyc ward at the hospital... he has no idea if she is serious or not and he isnt going to play around with that... I really hope she joins service like she says she wants too, cause either she will get kicked out or they will make her respect people... She has told my mom fuck you i dont know how many times, my mom tells her not to use something and she will take it right in front of her... She also sneaks off with things as well, these kids have no clue how to ask permission to use things that arent theirs...

My mom is scared to death of sil as well, she is afraid sil wants her dead and wants to make sure i am the only one in control of anything... my sister wont come to visit either cause of an insident that happend too... mom and sis went to get gas, sis bf was left at the house with mj... MJ was playing on the trampoline with all the other kids, and my brother asked bf to help him with something, now sil and her cousin were right there and the older kids were there too, do you think any of them could have watched this poor kid while bf helped my brother ... NO, MJ fell off the trampoline and sil's cousin had the nerve to call my sister a shitty mother... This chick doenst know my sister... How dare you tell her that... My sister is not the best mother, but she is trying , she is divorcing her abusive husband and trying to make a life for herself she is also taking parenting classes to be a better mom and learn to deal with things... Did you happen to tell your cousin what a shitty mom she was when she was drugging it and lost custody of her kids?

So now my sister doesnt want to come and see my mom while sil is living at the house... I will get in touch with her to have a talk with her... She will not cower to sil... I stired the pot yesturday myself... I gave my mom two cards, one for grandparents day, and one just to make her giggle but inside i wrote, i love you we might not always agree but i will always be there for you and in the end come hell or high water i will be there but i dont expect that time any time soon cause i cant imagine my life with out her, and also no one speaks for me, and you will not die alone... my mom left the cards on the table , well sil who says she never reads my moms mail, is all upset now cause of the card ... Feels i am pointing fingers at her... Well if you didnt say it then you have nothing to feel guilty about, but since it is bothering you guess you did say something like that...

Also found out she threatened my mom told her she would wipe her up and down the drive way, i told my mom if she ever says that again that i will kick her ass up and down the drive way and i will be right over to do it... My mom is 66 yrs old, you dont threaten her when she is giving you a place to live... She likes to throw things in your face if my brother helps my mom, lets face it , my brother owes her... So a little help here and there should not be thrown up all the time... They borrowed 800 bucks from my mom, bro did a few things so i think she took 700... Sil was pissed off that he had to pay it back... This comes from the girl that made my brother pay her back for the used truck she bought him...

She also wont let him use the computer she got, so he told her she cant use his car now, she then threatened to cancel the insurance, he said do that and you owe me one thousand dollars for the payment i just made... I dont know how they live like that... They are married they should be working together not keeping track on what monies are being put out... Its horrible... I told my brother, hubby took me out, we had lunch, he paid for my haircut, got me a jacket, etc but he doesnt expect anything back... If i was in bro's place i would have NEVER gotten married... I think they should get a divorce and walk away... I dont see how they will make it work without killing one another...

Upset...

I got off the phone a little while ago with my mom, she called me upset... And I am upset now... I am really starting to want to disown my brother... The older he gets the more of a prick he turns into... My brother thinks he is mr wonderful... That everyone loves him and he does so much for others... Lets see the ones who love him so much, those are the people who only call when he has a car or money... when he was sick with cancer the phone barely rang... The people he does so much for are the same people that use him... Can ya lend me this or lend me that oh i'll get it back to you or pay you back and that never happens... Little bro also has a habit of lending things, that arent his... If its in my moms garage or house he thinks he can lend it out... without asking mom... cause he knows if he asked she would tell him to fuck off... things over the years have disappeared out of the garage slowly... Mom goes looking for things and they are no longer there... my bro used to blame sis or her hubby or her boyfriends but she no longer lives in the area and cant visit alot due to limited money and transportation... And he better never look at my husband... we have our own stuff and we do return things we borrow... I was also told i do nothing for my mom... same with my sis... alot of this stems from when my mom was in the hospital , this was back when rhi was born and my maternity leave was up and i had to go back to work... I had no choice... the days i could go to the hospital i did before i went back... And I went to the hospital whenever i could after work... When mom came home bro and sil had the job of taking care of mom... I was working , they werent... Neither of them had a job and could stay with her and help her... If I was home I would have taken care of her... Believe me my mom didnt like being that weak and helpless... My mom has always taken care of everyone wasnt used to being on the opposite side... So this is constantly thrown up at me... but by my mom not my brother or his wife cause neither of them has the balls to say it to my face... The only thing sil has said she would never do it again if it happens again... My mom is terrified that if anything happens to her and someone said they could pull the plug that sil would be more than happy to do it... Mom is making sure that all paper work is in order and that NOTHING gets done without MY say... My brother has been in so much trouble all his life and my mom has bent over backwards to get him out of it... does my brother remember any of this? NO of course not... Its all about what he does, the little things he does for her that he throws in her face... He is all ready trying to get out of giving her money for living in her house... He moved back in thinking he could get a free ride... Lets use mom, she'll take it... there is so much more to vent about but i am fried... But something is going to be said to my brother and his wife... I dont need anyone defending me, I am a big girl and if i had something to say I will... I think sometimes the reason I dont say anything right away to my mom is one i dont want to say it in anger and I was raised to respect my elders... SIL wasnt taught any manners... I at one time liked this girl but am learning to hate her... And my brother he is just a waste of space right now... My brother messures things in money value, not what you do as a person... I am there for my mother even if i was pissed at my mom if she needed me i would be there for her... And sorry to say sil my mother will not die alone... I will be there for her... So go Fuck yourself and you dont speak for me...

She Crawls...

Emma crawled for the first time tonight... I was printing some things out so I had her in the living room with me and she was on the floor and she crawled... I knew it was only a matter of time, she has been getting up in the position and rocking like a mad woman... She has done little army crawls and has found other ways to get around but tonight she did it... Tomorrow I am going to set up the camera to get some video...

Slowly we are all getting better from this nasty cold we have... Emma has it but not as bad as rhi and I have had it... Hubby hasnt gotten it but he did get a nasty sunburn the other day...

I helped my mom tonight set up her user account to pay her credit card bill online... She came over pretty upset... My brother and his lovely wife and even the kids they have custody of treat her like crap in her own home... The put her down, snoop thru her stuff, use her and abuse her... I am pretty sick of it... And I am going to say something to my brother... Basically just going to tell him, you are living in moms house, under her roof, she is not the easiest person to live with all the time but you respect her and you kiss her ass.. otherwise you take your wife and the three kids and what ever animals you have and get the fuck out... she is doing you a favor since you cant afford to live on your own, even if you did just buy a new car, and all kinds of goodies... Its all about using mom, you want to live off of her pay her barely anything so you can keep what ever money you have in your pocket... And when you do her a favor you seem to think you are doing some great deed... and throw it in her face... How quickly we forget you little fucker how she took care of you when you had cancer, ran you to the hospital goddess only knows how many times when you wouldnt tell anyone you were reacting to the chemo bad or you werent feeling well which ment you had an infection, she ran you to doctors all over the place, took you for testing , got you medical help so you didnt have medical bills out the ass... She made sure you had gas in your car or when you bugged her till she gave in for money or whatever it was you wanted, she just gave it to shut your whinney ass up... and you knew this... She got you lawyers to keep you out of jail when you had so many traffic tickets, she paid your fines, bailed you out of jail, paid your insurance, let you drive her cars, etc... and you have the nerve when you get all that money to try and get out of paying 700 bucks, you cheap fuck... you always say you will pay her back but you almost never do, and if you do she has to nag you to get it back... I know I have bitched about this before and some of the same issues, I just need to vent when I see her that upset... They dont look to do things to be nice they do it to throw it in her face... I told her kick them out... I think i am going to be the bank cause he is all ready trying to get out of paying her for living there... And its not going to float... I dont care if they hate me and finally do leave and I never talk to them again... This is your mother, you dont treat her like this... I have answered the phone when my mom is taking me someplace and the way he calls her up if he was infront of me I would knock him in the nuts...Oh and lets not forget he couldnt help my mom out and put him on his cell plan as an extra line so she would have a cell in case of emergencys... but they could get a phone for her 8 yr old WTF... I wonder if he treats my mom like crap cause its the only woman he can boss around... His wife controls him, and its what she wants that goes... Its 1:40 in the morning and I really want to go and kick my brothers ass... Sometimes I wish I was an only child....

Catch up...

It's been a few days... Havent been feeling too good.. Rhianna got sick and then I got it... Not sure if hubby or emma will get it, I hope not... I was feeling so crappy I had to go to my moms on sat. to use her nebulizer... I was having such a hard time breathing and I just couldnt get the crap to break up... I did my inhaler, took a hot, shower let the steam build up, none of it worked... I finally called her and asked her if I could use her machine... It was exactly what I needed, it started breaking up the crap and by the end of the day my chest was loose... I woke up today able to breath and break up the crap on my own, but my mom said if I needed it again to come over... I think I am going to ask my doc to write me a script for a home machine and medicine... I don't need it often but its nice to know when I do I have it... Poor Rhi woke up at 5am coughing so bad, she got sick... So I made her a hot bath with that vapor bath stuff, then i left the shower on and the sink run with hot water and steamed up the bathroom and put a hot wash cloth on her back and chest... It helped, and by 6am she was back in bed... She must have woke up later for hubby and played a bit and then went back to sleep...

Rhi is a weird child, she does the oddest things at times... Like tonight, I was chatting with jenger and was going to get cough medicine and a cup of hot coffee.. I peeked in her room and she was standing there with a bucket and no pj's just her diaper... She was then showing me the bucket... I took the bucket and tilted it too the light... In the bucket were poop nuggets... Yup poop, she pulled them out of the back of her diaper and put them in the bucket... I do not know what made her do that... So I took the bucket into our bedroom, woke up hubby, laughing, telling him to look in the bucket... He's like what the hell is that, Poop... Who's? Our daughters... He laughed about it, said she was strange... I did changer her diaper and did find evidence that there was poop in there... I was worried that maybe the cat on some odd chance, but nope, it was hers.. So that was my excitement and my funny labor day story...

I also went thru fabric today... I was looking for fun stuff and stuff I had in good quantity... i then took pictures of it... I am thinking of maybe putting some stuff on etsy to sell... Hats, totes, maybe headwraps... Maybe some jewelry and other things too... I also joined a new site Indiepublic I started to add info to it and put some pictures on it... Not a whole lot there yet... Goddess Joy showed me that site...

I can't think of anything else off the top of my head that has been going on, other than my moms constant complaining since my brother and his wife and the kids they are guardians for have moved in with them... Their drug addict mother is out of rehab (she has done this more than once , she does it to stay out of jail) I thought the kids were going to go back with the mom, but so far they are still with my brother... So mom complains about them, my brother complains about her... etc etc... One thing my brother keeps forgetting is this is her house, he should be kissing her ass that she keeps taking him in... Everytime my brother wants to save money or be cheap and not pay rent to someone he moves back in with mom, and she being the idiot takes him in, now he comes with a lot of baggage... My step dad always said you can always come home, but with no baggage... Well he passed away and that's why my brother gets away with this shit... My mom likes to complain, if she didnt have someone to complain about she would die... I'm serious... She has to have something or someone negative in her life to bitch about... But like I said and I have told my brother too, (goes in one ear out the other) it is her house and you should do what ever she says and help out as much as possible and not complain... He bitched about how he helps her out all the time.. Well little bro what about all the times she help you out, getting you thru cancer, getting you a lawyer to keep your ass out of jail, paying your speeding tickets, paying your bail, lending you money and your wife left and right... So when she askes for some money back you pay it... Especially when you get a big chunk of change from SS for something like 19 grand and you go out and buy a new car... So when she asks for the 7 hundred back that you promised you would pay back you do it... And you pay rent or help out with food and the bills when your mom lives on a tight income and you bring including yourself 5 people, one cat and go and get a new dog... Most likely another animal that will be left with her... Everyone except me drops or leaves animals with her... Drives me nuts... ok I think I am done... lol

Have a happy and safe labor day...