Sounding better

Talked to my mom today she wasnt feeling well on monday she was getting sick and she looked a little pale when i saw her... My sil took her to the er later that night... They didnt do much there other than making them wait hours... She had a virus, needed to run its course, drink plenty of fluids and take advil for the 102 fever she had... I think they should have hooked an iv up for fluids since she was throwing up all day... But they didnt... Talked to my brother the next day when he brought over my mail and I gave him tylenol also for my mom... He makes the comment like he can never move out of my moms house cause who would take care of her... Hello, I did it when she needed me... I expect him to do more of it right now cause he is living in the house and pays NOTHING into the house... My sil also thinks that my mom would be left for dead if it wasnt for her, she made some comment at the hospital like what would you do without me to take care of you? My mom cant stand that they live there... She is so unhappy but since they cant afford to pay her to live with her they cant in turn pay someone to live somewhere else... I am hoping my brother brings my mail over today, I have a few things to say... Goddess same story different day...

This breaks my heart....

Some people should not have kids and its becoming more and more... This article on CNN
Just broke my heart... This poor child did not deserve this... If you have any doubts about raising a child then dont get pregnant, and if by chance you do and dont think you can handle it then give it up for adoption , drop it off someplace where it will be safe... If you want children but find yourself angry WALK AWAY... Go in another room till you calm down or call someone for help... I had a few rough nights as a first time parent and i was alone hubby was away on business and Rhi just wouldnt stop crying I had no idea what to do... I started to cry and felt like my head was going to explode... I put her in the middle of the bed and left the room...( before i could even leave the hospital i was made to watch and sign papers that i watched the videos on shaken baby and other baby videos) I cried a bit more, breathed deep and got my head clear... i would never hurt my children but any mother can agree it can get frustrating... But not to hurt an innocent child... When ever I see one of these articles on the news I wanna beat the person that can do sick crap like this... I really hope they are able to find the parents...

TGIF

I am so glad its friday... It means I have hubby home with us for two days... :) Not sure if we are doing anything other than food shopping but its time together and thats what counts... Rhi has found a new show she likes Sam Sam , its cute she gets all excited and dances and tries to sing the song... So I have recorded a few episodes with the dvr... Emma is trying to walk more and I think she is even trying to talk... Rhi's 3rd birthday is coming up soon... Cant believe she is three all ready...

Not much going on in the creative department... Ive redone a few notebook covers but thats about it... I want to try and sit down tonight and make a necklace or two, I got some new shirts and the only thing i think that will go good with them is something that is close to the neck... So we shall see...

Rest of the family is doing good, mom is getting better as the days go by and she is able to do more and more... Not sure if i mentioned that an old friend from high school found me... I am thinking of calling her this weekend to actually talk to her... Its been about 10 years since i have spoken to her, I think the last time I talked to her was when my stepdad past away... I have a video from my 18th birthday that I havent tried to watch cause it has my stepdad in it and Im afraid i think it will make me cry... We didnt always get along in the begining but that changed later on and I miss him a lot...

Party....

We finally got to have Emma's 1st birthday party today... It was nice... I love having family over and the kids running around the house having fun... We thought Emma would mash her cake up but I dont think she knew what to make of it... Rhi was more than happy to just lean over and lick the cake and show her sister what to do...

I took a nap after everyone left... I was so tired... I havent gotten much sleep the last few days and its catching up with me... Kids have been up early and I think I am getting a cold... Trying hard not too but only time will tell...

So now I am relaxing, drinking a hot cup of coffee, the stuff doesnt keep me awake... And chatting with my pal Joy... I showed her a pic from today of rhi with the babys and then we showed one another what we have been making... She is so talented and if you want to see what she creates stop by her store on etsy GoddessJoy
Here is one of her pieces... Pretty isnt it... Go on and stop by...

Well going to run, and chat a bit more... Hugs to all

Sunday Shopping....

Well we got a late start but we went shopping for some food things we needed at sam's club... Love buying in bulk... And I got to use my gift card I got from my MIL.. It was for old navy... Not only did I have a gc, but they were having 50% all ready reduced clearance stuff... So I spent 37.00 of it and have 13.00 left and I got, a pair of jeans I so love, I was afraid they wouldnt fit being a size 6 but they looked a little on the big side... I also got 6 shirts, 2 heavy scarfs, 1 sweater, 1 dress... I probably could have spent the last bit on the card but I had hubby and the kids in the car... Hubs let me go in by myself so I could just have fun and enjoy myself... I have the portable dvd player in the car so the kids were entertained... Its been a long time since I enjoyed myself shopping like that... Felt good... Only down thing was probably while trying on all the clothes I lost the bracelet I made last night... It was only copper and glass but still... I also got a few odds and ends at michaels... They have like half the bead isle clearanced... I hope they are going to be bringing in some new fun stuff....

Well I am going to go relax now... Oh just an update, Emma is doing good... She is happy and on the go... She is still getting her appitiete back but I am sure she will be good in a few days... She has her wellness visit tomorrow, so will go over everything with the doc tomorrow... Have a good night....

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Emma and how did we start off her 1st birthday, me taking her to the ER with a 103.7 fever... I panicked gave her the tylenol but didnt wait for it to kick in by the time we got to the er and got into a room the fever broke... But she did get looked at and its viral so give meds for comfort and plenty of fluids... Its gotta run its course... Just a crappy way to turn one... She is finally sleeping for a bit though which is good, she needs to be near me though she doesnt want to sleep alone... Well I am going to try and get some sleep...

Rollercoaster.....

After my last post that is how I feel... I was so angry, Now I feel like crying... I was trying to make something earlier but now thats shot... I cant work when I am like this... :(

Kiss My Ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got off the phone with my sister.. she wanted to tell me my mom might be coming home tomorrow which i all ready knew... We got to talking about a few things and she brought up the ring my mom gave her on her wedding day to sperm donar... my sister asked about it and my mom told her not to worry about it... I dont like to lie and i felt bad hurting my sis but i told her the truth that the ring she gave her, which was my moms wedding set and the wedding set that was my aunts that i thought i would get on my wedding day for my something old, she pawned... Beautiful antique rings she got 600 bucks for that where worth a few grand... She needed cash for a little trip she made to see my brother she said when he worked at the camp... I was so mad when i found out what she did... I always wondered why she never gave them to me on my wedding day and she was clueless on letting me borrow something to walk down the isle with... I cried my eyes out the morning of my wedding, I was hysterical when I called rich... He called his mom and told me she would see me with something special... My mom sent over this crappy ring little while later but the damage was done... Hubbys mom let me wear a nice strand of pearls... What did my mom say when she saw me... "Where did you get those? are those my pearls?" No mom rich's mom brought them for me to wear for something old and borrrowed since I was so upset... So not only did my mom upset me, she then thought I stole from her... So now my sister is a little pissed at my mom... I know why she took the set back, she was afraid my sister would sell it... She always needed money... And who turns around and does it, my mom...

So sis and I had a long talk and she tells me how my sil talks about me and how hubs and I do nothing for my mom... How we dont go over and help my mom... Lets see, when mom was alone, we helped her whenever she needed it... When we could do it we gave her extra cash as well... Whenever she needs something now we do it for her... When hubby does the snow blowing he doesnt just do here, he does it all... We pay the bills over here on time so mom doesnt have to rent to anyone eles who wont take care of the place or let it sit vacant... Cause If my brother lived here, he wouldnt pay the bills... I pay the renters insurance over here, I pay for the cell phone my mom has that they couldnt do for her but could do for sil kid, who sil mother gave the phone to her son and he ran a bill up that i dont think they paid... When my mom needs a ride I do it...

What does my brother and his wife do? They dont work, either of them... They have no kids to take care of... The freeload off of my mom, they dont pay her rent... The eat her food and dont replace it... The run up the bills and dont help her pay them... When my mom asks a favor it takes my brother days, weeks or over a month to do things... My brother has borrowed money and not payed it back and now my sil thinks my mom is the bank too... My mom was happy with them not being there, they think she was lonely, she wasnt and wishes for those days now... My brother got back payment from ssi, about 19,000.00 he blew it less than a month I think... He bought himself a new car, he didnt pay for it in full so he does have a car payment, because of that they cant afford to live on there own cause they wont make their bills... They cant pay my mom money but they go out all the time, have money for cigarettes go out to eat, etc... They keep bringing home animals and my mom winds up taking care of them, paying for the vet bills or being guilted into paying vet bills... My mom feeds their animals as well as her own, and even when they left last time, they left their three cats there... I keep telling my mom to stand up for her self she is an adult but my brother likes to guilt her into things, my sil is just a bully and wont do it in front of me for me to see how she treats my mom but I so wish i would see it... And even when my mom tells him no my brother will nag my mom and nag her to the point of driving her nuts so she gives in... My brother is a DICK... This is something that has been bothering me as well cause I keep my mouth shut cause everything I hear is from others... I told my mom today if he has something to say and same for sil have the balls to say it to my face... Dont bitch to my mom cause your too chicken shit to say it to me... And that I am going to say to my brother... I so want for him to tell me what I dont do, so I can tell him all he doesnt do and how he freeloads off my mom, he is 34, and he needs to start acting like a man...

Happy New Year....?

I wish I was happy but I have been depressed and its getting on my nerves... I dont know what is wrong with me... It has been happening on and off but as of lately its been constant... Is it the new year...? If I dont feel like crying then I am pissed off... And that has been getting really bad too... My mom is in the hospital, that happened new years eve... My sil had to go calling around to find her cause when they got home they noticed the animals hadnt been fed... My mom didnt call anyone to let them know where she was and she didnt think to have the nurses call one of her emergency contacts... She went to the ER around 3:30... It was after 7 when we found out where she was... So I got pissed off about that... Then we all went to the ER and she starts jumping down my brothers throat and for once he didnt deserve it so I told her to knock it off... She then tries using the medication she is on, it makes me funny she says... I then said to her "well whats your excuse for the other 364 days of the year"? I guess i touched a nerve with that cause she got upset... I appologized kinda, before i left to go home i told her i'm sorry that i'm on her case but she does things that drive me nuts and she is her own worst enemy... She told me i drive her nuts, we hugged and said i love you's ... I was also pissed that my mom was still in the er at 10:30, they were going to admit her, they just needed to find a bed... at 10:30 they still didnt have one and they had 3 others waiting for rooms, old people in wheelchairs in the waiting room with iv's hooked up cause they were so busy and I guess understaffed... I cant wait for that "how'd we do" form they send ... I also was pissed off at my brother cause he was there for maybe 30 min and then they had to leave... they left me there cause they had to go meet her cousin at midnight to drop off her kid... why they had to go hours before i dont know... I left at 10:30 cause I didnt want to be driving closer to midnight...my mom understood she didnt want me driving with all the drunks either...

There is so much more bugging me but I will save that for tomorrow... I'm probably driving hubby nuts with my typing but I cant sleep and I figured I needed to get this out...