Thursday, January 03, 2008

Happy New Year....?

I wish I was happy but I have been depressed and its getting on my nerves... I dont know what is wrong with me... It has been happening on and off but as of lately its been constant... Is it the new year...? If I dont feel like crying then I am pissed off... And that has been getting really bad too... My mom is in the hospital, that happened new years eve... My sil had to go calling around to find her cause when they got home they noticed the animals hadnt been fed... My mom didnt call anyone to let them know where she was and she didnt think to have the nurses call one of her emergency contacts... She went to the ER around 3:30... It was after 7 when we found out where she was... So I got pissed off about that... Then we all went to the ER and she starts jumping down my brothers throat and for once he didnt deserve it so I told her to knock it off... She then tries using the medication she is on, it makes me funny she says... I then said to her "well whats your excuse for the other 364 days of the year"? I guess i touched a nerve with that cause she got upset... I appologized kinda, before i left to go home i told her i'm sorry that i'm on her case but she does things that drive me nuts and she is her own worst enemy... She told me i drive her nuts, we hugged and said i love you's ... I was also pissed that my mom was still in the er at 10:30, they were going to admit her, they just needed to find a bed... at 10:30 they still didnt have one and they had 3 others waiting for rooms, old people in wheelchairs in the waiting room with iv's hooked up cause they were so busy and I guess understaffed... I cant wait for that "how'd we do" form they send ... I also was pissed off at my brother cause he was there for maybe 30 min and then they had to leave... they left me there cause they had to go meet her cousin at midnight to drop off her kid... why they had to go hours before i dont know... I left at 10:30 cause I didnt want to be driving closer to midnight...my mom understood she didnt want me driving with all the drunks either...

There is so much more bugging me but I will save that for tomorrow... I'm probably driving hubby nuts with my typing but I cant sleep and I figured I needed to get this out...

2 comments:

Jenger said...

hugs babe

Laura said...

I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. I'm thinking about you and hoping it gets better. Family can be difficult. {hugs}