Monday....

Mondays are so blah... I havent done much... My allergies have been kicking up and i cant take anything since i am breastfeeding... My nose is red but i dont think its a cold, doesnt feel like a cold... My mom stopped by for a bit, told me my brother and his gf are moving out... I dont remmeber the details but C has a friend that needs someone to watch her kids, think the friend is going into rehab and has no one to take care of them... I know my brother wanted no part of this but mom says bro has no say in anything anyways... My mom is happy she wants her house to herself again... My brother and his gf have been selfish and not helping my mom at all... So she isnt sad to see them go... Plus my brother is trying to hit my mom up for things and my mom keeps telling him no... Then my bro throws at her all she has given me... Now i am right across the way living in a house my mom owns, so the bed and armoire arent going too far... Plus my mom has done way too much for him and he should really put his hand back in his pocket... Goddess he pisses me off...

Other than that nothing exciting here going on playing around on a new blog site for pagans, http://www.covenspace.com could be interesting so i started playing adding info etc...

Working water

I was ready to start having a cow... Friday our water started acting funny, this black stuff started coming out of the faucet... I thought maybe the filter just needed to be changed, then my mom started having issues and she lost water pressure, and then later on we did too... She never bothered to call later to tell us her water pressure came back... So hubby tried changing the filter and thank the goddess what ever was in the line came out... We have well water so sometimes the lines get clogged with dirt or now that its winter and we have gone below zero the lines can freeze, but i am happy to say i have water pressure and can now do laundry, wash dishes, take a shower etc... What a pain in the ass... Oh and when my mom called to say she lost water pressure she called to find out if my hubby did something wrong since she had him change her filter... She cant do these things and goddess forbid my brother should do something...

I had to brave going over there to get my mail yesturday too and i knew i was not getting out of the house without her asking how much weight i have lost... Now you would think with all the weight i have lost it would be good enough for her.... NOPE, her comment was well if you can get down to 150 - 140 i think that will be good for you... I just wanted to cry... I have lost alot of weight can i keep it off, who knows... My mom just pisses me off... Oh well what can ya do...

Day with my Girls....

Today was the first day i have spent by myself with both my girls... It went ok... I was worried Rhi would jump on my stomach but she was good... We hung out watched movies, had pizza for lunch, while Emma just had breast... lol

I did get to print out some pictures today, two that my friend sent me yesturday so i can show my mom what her baby looks like... Goddess we have been friends forever and now we are both mommies... Its just too cool... I also printed out some small pictures so i could replace the ones in my locket, an updated one of Rhianna and one of Emma...

More chit chat

Talked to my friend K today and found out she had a baby too back in oct... It was great to catch up and talk baby talk with her... We have been friends for so long its weird that we are both moms now... lol

I didnt do a lot today, finished a book, gave the baby a bath... I dont know what made me do it but i was reading up on baby stuff for 2 week olds and the site had a video of a c section and i watched it... Oh boy... glad hubby couldnt have seen that he would have passed out... Glad i couldnt see that either it would have freaked me out... But all in all still amazing...

Waiting for hubby to get home with my two cheese burgers from mcdonalds, i havent wanted anything from there since i was pregnant but cheese burgers sounded good...

Chit Chat...

Its been snowing on and off all day today... Its funny how we have had no snow and now it seems like it isnt stopping... Its not major snow just enough to be a pain in the ass... Plus being at a higher elevation we always seem to get more than what in town is getting... Not that i am going anywhere... So didnt do a lot to day my mom called to tell me that the temp would be dropping tonight to about 3 degrees and thats not including the wind chill so it will probably be below zero... Then she had her normal bitching about my brother and his gf and how they dont respect her stuff, etc, etc... I am so sick of hearing about her complain about them and them complain about her... Only thing i have to say is they are living in her house and not paying rent and they should respect her and they dont... Things happen but i am never around to see it first hand to be able to comment on things... I think at times they are all full of shit but oh well ... They are still planning on getting married in may, if they dont kill one another by then... I like his gf dont get me wrong but they fight all the time and i dont understand why two people that fight as much as they do and say they are misserable why they would want to get married... Plus my mom doesnt like her and her family doesnt like my brother, so that will make things uncomfortable too... Not that , that should matter if they really love one another... I havent had time to really talk to my brother to see why he is getting married... Is it because he loves her or is it because he is getting older and doesnt want to be alone so figures what the hell...

I did get to talk to a friend tonight i finally got thru on the number she sent me... Got to tell her i had another baby, its been that long since i talked to her... It was nice to chat with her and catch up...

Well going to go and watch charlie and the chocolate factory with Rhianna...

My sleepy girls

I couldnt resist last night while the girls were sleeping putting them together and getting a picture of them sleeping... they just looked so sweet...

Just puttering around

Doing things here and there today... I did a few small loads of laundry, put all that stuff away... Got garbage together for my brother to take to the dump... That is one pain in the ass about living in the woods, we have to go to the garbage dump... Never did get to the dishes but i will do that tomorrow... Did read a little bit on the nora roberts book i have been working on... I did get my strips off today, doc told me to wait till tuesday then i could start peeling them off... That was a pain in the ass, in the shower, holding a mirror, trying to peel these things off... Took me a bit but i got them... Oh and i weighed myself today... When i got pregnant i was 197, then i lost weight while pregnant i would go between 183 and 187, when i checked into the hospital i was 187... when i left i was i think 180-181... I had a doc visit last week but i forgot to ask how much i weighed... Well tonight i was 163... I am hoping i can loose a bit more and keep it off... I got this nice dress for my brothers wedding in may i am in the wedding and i want to look good in this dress... Wasnt a bad find for 60 dollars... C has been having a blast on ebay... Its amazing what you can find on there... Oh well baby is awake and probably hungry...

Didnt do a lot today... I did get up at a decent hour though but i have been nodding on and off all day specially when feeding the baby... I dont know why but breastfeeding relaxes me so much... I am glad i am going to have the time to do this for longer , i was upset when i stopped last time with Rhi, its just they gave you no place at work to pump and it seemed like such a waste to pump and dump... I just love the look on there face when they are eating... Or when they are hungry and trying to latch on , they just look so cute... Then there is when she finally latches on and she wraps her little hand around my thumb and looks up at me while she feeds... Just too cute... I know i'm a dork...

I got the following in an emial the other day and thought i would share, they just made me laugh especially # 7 and 8...

1. A man comes into the ER and yells, "My wife's going to have her baby in the cab!" I grabbed my stuff, rushed out to the cab, lifted the lady's dress, and began to take off her underwear. Suddenly I noticed that there were several cabs -and I was in the wrong one.Submitted by Dr. Mark MacDonald, San Antonio, TX

2. At the beginning of my shift I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall. "Big breaths," I instructed. "Yes, they used to be," replied the patient.Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle, WA.

3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct. Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a "massive internal fart."Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg, Manitoba, Canada

4. During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist,he informed me, his doctor, that he was having trouble with one of his medications. "Which one?" I asked. "The patch. The nurse told me to put on a new one every six hours and now I'm running out of places to put it!" I had him quickly undress and discovered what I hoped I wouldn't see. Yes, the man had over fifty patches on his body! Now, the instructions include removal of the old patch before applying a new one.Submitted by Dr. Rebecca St. Clair, Norfolk, VA

5. While acquainting myself with a new elderly patient, I asked, "How long have you been bedridden?" After a look of complete confusion she answered..."Why, not for about twenty years - when my husband was alive." Submitted by Dr. Steven Swanson, Corvallis, OR

6. I was caring for a woman and asked, "So how's your breakfast this morning?" "It's very good, except for the Kentucky Jelly. I can't seem to get used to the taste" the patient replied. I then asked to see the jelly and the woman produced a foil packet labeled "KY Jelly."Submitted by Dr. Leonard Kransdorf, Detroit, MI

7. A nurse was on duty in the Emergency Room, when a young woman with purple hair styled into a punk rocker Mohawk, sporting a variety of tattoos, and wearing strange clothing, entered. It was quickly determined that the patient had acute appendicitis, so she was scheduled for immediate surgery.When she was completely disrobed on the operating table, the staff noticed that her pubic hair had been dyed green, and above it there was a tattoo that read, "Keep off the grass." Once the surgery was completed, the surgeon wrote a short note on the patient's dressing, which said, "Sorry, had to mow the lawn." Submitted by RN no name

AND FINALLY...

8. As a new, young MD doing his residency in OB, I was quite embarrassed when performing female pelvic exams. To cover my embarrassment I had unconsciously formed a habit of whistling softly. The middle-aged lady upon whom I was performing this exam suddenly burst out laughing and further embarrassing me. I looked up from my work and sheepishly said, "I'm sorry. Was I tickling you?" She replied, "No doctor, but the song you werewhistling was, "I wish I was an Oscar Meyer Wiener."

We actually got some snow here... We have had a very mild winter for the area we are in... I just wonder if it was waiting till later in the season and then we were going to get nailed... Hubby was out earlier and said the roads sucked... This was around 5pm or so... So whatever we need to get done can wait till tomorrow... Maybe they will plow my hill too... The town guys here are worthless... Doesnt help my mom is on his bad side and he is one of those guys that thinks women cant do anything right...

Didnt do a lot today anyways... I was out of it most of the day and just wanted to sleep when i could... Right now i am watching lost boys on cable... I loved this movie when it came out lol...

this is Rhianna on the left

and this is Emma on the right... I thought i would share a pic of my two girls... They look so much alike when little... Only diff is Rhianna has light hair and Emma has dark hair...

Not much going on today, took a bit to get moving today but we did head out to the mall for a little bit of shopping... I think i spent more on the kids than myself lol... Old navy had a lot clearanced so i picked up some things... Went to target got some things there too... Was just nice to be out... Needed the fresh air and sun i think more than anything...

So i am filling out birth announcements and birthday invitations for Rhi's second bday party... Otherwise i dont have a lot to do... I am actually bored and no one is online to chat with... :(

I dont remember a whole lot of the rest of that day... By then i had whatever they gave me floating through my system and i had little sleep as it was so i was nodding off and on... my brother thought it was funny i would be in mid sentence and then fall asleep... I was very out of it lol... Hubby was able to stay the night with me, he went to work the next morning from the hospital... I didnt want to be alone the first night anyway so i was glad he stayed... By morning i was hurting... The cathider (sp) they had in me was killing me... Just to slightly move it i was cringing... They were going to come in a few hours to remove it but in the mean time i had to have a nurse clean me till then and that was the pits it hurt so much... When they did come to take it out that was the easy part, one two three and it ws out... Now the job of getting up, moving around and trying to pee for the first time... Not so easy... It took some time before that actually happened and i really had to go, i drink a lot of liquid normally so my bladder was full... When i could finally do it i was so relieved, one no more i gotta pee pain and then the worry about what will they do if i cant... The rest of my stay wasnt that exciting it was resting, getting to know my new baby, learning how to feed her etc... The hospital staff as always was wonderful there... We got them a card and two boxes of chocolates to say thank you...

I have been feeling pretty good for the most part... I have moments when i feel absolutly fine then moments when i am hurting... I get the rest of my staples out on thursday... I cant wait till it gets comfortable to move around... I like to sleep on my side and i cant do that right now... drives me nuts... Oh well i am going to try and get some sleep again...

Well I never did get to go to sleep early... I've still been finding it hard to sleep... My doctor would laugh because she would make her morning rounds and i would be up all ready... Granted she made her rounds , around the normal time i would be up for work... So, lets see... On tuesday i barely got any sleep that night... I think i might have had a total of two hours... Then it was get up, load the car and make our way to the hospital... I was sick to my stomach when we were in the car... I was so afraid i was going to get sick and i had nothing in my stomach to get sick... And i wanted water so bad... Anything to drink i was so thirsty... So we got to the hospital, i am all ready preregistered so the little old guy takes me and hubby up to maternity... I weigh in and go to my room, that was bigger than the last room i was in... Then it was getting an iv put in, blood work taken, sugar checked, and my vitals... Then i got the special stockings put on, then the leg things that massage my legs so i get no clots and then the fun part the cathiter (sp)... That thing hurt so bad and more so than normal i think because that yeast infection i had i didnt get rid of it... Then the waiting began for them to come and get me... I was there at 6am, i think it was closer to 8 when they finally came to get me... i kept shaking on and off and when i get really nervous my legs shake really bad... Hubbys mom and dad were up in the room with us while we waited... my mom didnt make it till later... Also one of hubbys relatives is taking nursing in boces and wanted to know if it would be ok with me if she came in and watched... She is such a sweet girl and i told her no problem she had my permission... The anesthesia guy was a family friend of hubbys dad... It was like friends all getting together lol... So they told me what they were going to do they were just waiting for the room to be ready... My doc had to hold my feet down so i wouldnt shake all over the table... Then when the spinal went in that was the weirdest thing, but i didnt feel anything... And in less than an hour, goddess less than 10 min of being numbed up Emma was born...hubby who said he wasnt going to cut the cord , did... And then they held her up so i could see her... And i couldnt get over all the hair she had... Then they started to clean her up and then i got to touch her and i cried a little bit... The longest part of it all was getting stitched up... Then off to recovery till i can move my feet, bend my legs and lift them a bit... But they were nice enough to get me a cup of ice chips... Woo hooo i munched on those like no tomorrow... Then it was up to my room and waiting for them to bring the baby to me... More to come....

Well we are finally home... Emma Sophia born 8:41 am, weighing 7lbs 8oz and was 19 3/4 in long... Everyone thinks she is the cutest little thing... The whole maternity ward was in love with her...

Did i mention i has horrible heartburn through out this pregnancy and look at all the hair she has...

Its good to be home... It was nice to be taken care of in the hospital but i didnt get a lot of rest... So hopefully tonight i will get a good nights sleep...

Well more to come later about everything when i actually have

a brain that can put info ote page

hugs

Draven

Well tomorrow is the big day... I am a bit nervous i would be nervous no matter which way we were going... I think i wont totally freak out till tmorrow...It does suck that after 12am i cant have anything to eat or drink... The drinking part is what's going to bug me... I always have something to drink and with still having that cough from the cold this will make it hard to not have something...I was told i could rinse my mouth with water but i cant swallow anything... So i will drink everything i can till midnight... Hubby all ready took baby R to the sitters, I miss her all ready... She was so cute today, except when it came to changing her then it was a game of catch me mommy and then you can change me... Try doing that at 39 weeks pregnant... Oiy... I have all my stuff packed, got a bag too of things to do, sketch pad, reading books, stationary to write some letters, music, movies, etc... Now if they had internet access i would bring the old laptop but last time they did not offer that... I have a special wash i need to use in the shower tonight... I hope its not smelly or dries my skin out since i cant put on any lotion... Oh well i am going to run, going to find something to drink and maybe write a little bit... Hugs to all... I probably wont have an update till i get home, so thats when pictures will come too... Blessings

I swear my daughter is trying to put me into labor before tuesday... First she took her clothes off down to her diaper, she pooped and then proceeded to put her hand down the back and smear it up and all over her, so we went and had a bath... At that time i noticed something coming out of her nose... Thought it was a boogie so i grabbed it, nope it was paper towel or something... I am like great, i can feel my stress level going up... So we finish with the bath i dry her hair get her jammies on and take her into her room put on a movie and put her down so i can look up her nose to see a big wad of something in the back... I then notice in her bed a dried up wet wipe with pieces torn off... So now i know what is up there... I dont know how many times i tried to grab it but i just couldnt get it... And i had no thin tweezers... So after much frustration hubby and i get into the car and head to the er, which is a 75 dollar visit... we get there and the parking lot has many cars all ready... We go in tell them that she has something up her nose they tell us to take a seat and then we just sit and wait... Lots of people in and out... Then one guy with chest pains so he went in, we still havent had anyone get our info etc... Then two to three ambulances came in... We knew we were never getting in there... So we decided to leave we would keep an eye on her nose and come back in the morning if we had to... We decided since in town might as well hit the market and pick up a few things they had on sale... One thing i wanted was jar sauce that was 10 for 10 bucks... Its good for quickie things and you cant beat a dollar a jar... We got a few other things too including babys pretzel rods that she just loves... We took a spin down hba isle and i looked at the tweezers they had these thin slightly pointed ones... So i figured what the hell... So baby fell asleep on the way home we let her get comfy in bed and go deeper into sleep, hubby very carefully with tweezers went up her nose and got the wad of wet wipe out of her nose... So instead of 75 buck, we spent a few bucks in gas and i think 4.99 for the tweezers... I swear i am going to make a mask for her nose that prevents her from sticking things up there.....

Today i did basically nothing... I was up early but i couldnt stay awake... I think everything just caught up with me, I slept on and off all day today... Hubby did paint today, it might need one more coat but not sure till it dries... I need to find new curtains for her room, the room i used to use for storage of all my craft projects etc so i never really cared what was on the windows...

Yesturday I had my pre-op with the hospital to talk about medical history and what i need to do the night before my c-section... I got really nervous when in there, my blood pressure was actually up... I then had to hang with my mom for a few hours after that since she had a foot doc appointment and didnt want to go home for a few hours and come back... I was falling asleep by the time we got to the doctors office... I was nodding off in there with my headset on... i was so happy to get home, took a short nap... There are so many things i want to get done by monday night but i just dont think i will get there... I get tired really quick now... I just wish i could sleep solidly thru the night instead of a few hours then up for a bit then repeat... I am going to be in the hospital for at least 4 days, that is going to be weird... With baby R hubby had vacation time saved up and stayed with me... This time we cant do that... He will be there tuesday and spend the night but then he will go to work on wed, there really isnt any point in him missing all that work to keep me company... The babysitter all ready said she would take baby R monday night and tuesday night so i know she will be taken care of and in a comfortable place... I think the whole thing will be happening around 7am or so... Think my m-i-l will be there, not sure about my own mother... I just care that hubby is there... I told him again he just needs to talk to me while all of it is going on... Keeps my mind busy... Getting the baby out they said will take maybe 5 min or so, then the rest is sewing me back up ... Hubby wont be in the room for all of that and he cant see anything below the sheet or he will be passing out... lol... I am excited and nervous, here we go again... My mom got me diapers yesturday when we were out and we just talked about all the little body parts... Little hands, feet, tiny butt, etc... I cant wait to hold her.... I do need to get to the store tomorrow though and get a few last minute things... I need milk storage bags and i need one more nursing bra, one of the ones i had that i loved the lace dried out and it ripped... I have my bags mostly packed too... So Tuesday the 9th is the big day... Little Emma Sophia will be here... Hugs to all

Today started out kinda blah... Baby R didnt want to sleep last night, she was up till 3:30 am i dont know why... So i was a bit tired this morning because she wanted me in her room to watch movies... I had my weekly doctors appointment today, hubby got out of work to take me to it... I am having the c-section on tuesday, i will still get an ultrasound before to see if she has turned but if she hasnt then a c-section will be done... I am a bit nervous, but i have talked to people that have had them, I just think nerves go along with it... So we called family to let them know what was going on... Then i went to take a hot shower to see if i could break the crap up in my chest from this cold i still have... Hubby then comes in asking where the little flash lite is he wants to look up babys nose... I found it when i got out and we tried to look up babys nose, i at first thought there was nothing but regular yukies up there, but then i saw something eles... Looked like paper or paper towel, so hubby got the snot sucker and q-tips and we tried to clean her out... I think i got it all but i just dont get why she does this... What is the fasination of shoving things up her nose... And then having to go thru what we did tonight.... I am hoping we got it all and she has maybe learned her lesson... I am now just waiting for her to go to sleep so i can look up her nose without her freaking out...

So in 4 days baby E will be here... Its kinda funny, she will be born on Jan 9th and baby R was born on Feb 9th... I thought it was cool...

Here's a picture of my pretty girl from christmas at her Nana's house...