Friday, June 15, 2007

Feeling blue....

Today has been an emotional roller coaster.... First I was antsy waiting for my mom to bring the mail to me... I knew that hubbys fathers day present was here... I got him an I.D bracelet... I got his name engraved on the front and then the back says Love Rhianna and Emma... I was so excited I couldnt wait for him to have it so when he got home, I gave it to Rhi and had her give it to him... I have no patients... Then the blue mood started coming on... I went out looking for rowena the cat and I am out there calling here kitty kitty and here comes the quail... It is one confused bird... So I went back in the house and got a piece of bread and fed it... I am going to call it morgan I think... Good name for a boy or girl... So morgan took a few pieces from my hand... I pulled the rest apart on the grass and said good night and went inside... Its now 10pm, Rhi is in bed, dont think she is asleep, emma is in her cradle and asleep and so is hubby... I dont know where the cats are other than spaz, he is between hubbys legs... lol So I am feeling a bit alone and depressed... I think its hormones ? I got my monthly around this time last month, who knows if I will get it this month, not sure if breastfeeding is going to screw it all up... But I am emotional and I just wanna cry... I hate feeling like this... I have the urge to buy myself something but cant find anything that does it for me... And it must be a crazy thing for me but when I am depressed you can usually find me in the pen isle of a store... Pens make me feel better, so do purses... Jewelry can be good too depending on what it is... I tried making something but I am not happy with it... I will leave it till after this passes and see how I feel... Oh well... Think I am going to read more of pagan prayer beads... Not sure... Dont think I could fall asleep though... Hugs to all....

2 comments:

Jenger said...

There is something about pens that cheer me up also. There are so many groovy colors and shapes. I have been trying to de-clutter and have started to get rid of some. I actually ran across some from high school. LOL, That was almost half my life ago.

Draven said...

They do make me feel better lol... I found a few at walmart this weekend... I have a once a year clean out, mom looks forward to it since I give her a bag of pens to go thru... I love all the types of colored pens out there... Hubby laughs when he asks me for a pen "do you have a pen"? then kicks himself, of course you have a pen, your the pen freak... lol And if you borrow a pen you better give it back unless its one of those dime a dozen ones... lol its bad... Do they have pen shrinks?