Didnt do much today... I couldnt sleep last night and neither could the baby she kept waking up crying so i at one point went in made sure her diaper was fresh and got some blankets and a pillow and made a bed on the floor next to her bed... Well she wound up on the floor with me and she loves the blankets on the floor, she has been laying there watching tv etc... So i put a sleeping bag on her xmas list...

Hubby put my new cabnit together while i was out at the doctors... I put a good chunk of my witchy books and other things in it... I havent decided yet if i want to paint it or stain it... We shall see...

Everything at the doctors was ok except my urine... they found protein in it... So i have to go back in at the end of the day and have another test to see where it is and that i dont have toximia starting... I dont have any of the other signs but doc wants to keep an eye on it... My reg doc is on her honeymoon so i am seeing the the other doc in the office... He seems nice...

I got my bead order from firemountain gems today... I was so excited... I love getting beads and findings to make stuff... So now i have to make up some other designs now with all the new stuff i got...

Oh well i am going to relax...Its only 8:30 but i am tired.... hugs go all

I had a really rough night last night sleeping... Every move i hurt... I definatly did way too much walking yesturday... I stayed home from work today just to rest... I wont be doing anything like that again...

I did get to talk to Salem today... I gave her a buzz while i was relaxing in bed... So we chatted for sometime...It was good to get a chance to talk to her...Its been awhile...

Hubby isnt doing too well today, his stomach is bothering him... I am wondering if he had the stomach bug his dad had at the begining of the week... If i would have known his dad was sick this week i wouldnt have gone over there...So i pray what ever he has baby and I dont get it... He was running a fever too but that broke a few hours later but we'll keep an eye on that...

I have been waiting for all my beads from the new order to get here... I am so impatient... I did also find the horse by little tike that they dont make anymore on ebay... The baby sitter has one and Baby loves that thing... You should see her scoot thru her house... Its so cute... So I found only one on ebay and i won it so it will be here sometime this week... She will have to wait till xmas to get it...

I did walk over to my moms this afternoon to get mail... I guess she needed to vent... And then i think she gets annoyed with me cause i dont sugar coat anything i say to her... My brother and sister are just pains in the ass... My brother has the nerve to make comments about what my sister spends her money on or when she asks my mom for money but then i hear what he has done and its the same damn thing... Guess he likes to dish out the crap but doesnt see how much his is like her too... I told my mom today she needs to knock it off... They are both adults... They need to start acting like it... When we were driving home last night after running into sis and her hubby and kids i just told rich i am so happy we dont have a life like them or like my brother and his gf... My mom said the latest argument my brother had with gf he jumped out of a moving vehicle... I just dont get it... If there is so much bad, and your hurting yourself, get the hell out... But they dont they stay in it.... Its annoying and i dont feel sorry for them anymore... They have choices to make and dont do it... So guess they are going to have to live with...

Ok. think i rambled on long enough....

Hubby and I braved the shopping centers and went out on black friday... Parking was insane but for the most part it wasnt too bad... A few rude people but not as bad as it could have been... I did get a new toy today, i got a new laptop. An HP pavilion dv9010us widescreen... So i have spent most of the night trying to get that ready... I got hubby his EQ upgrade too today and got the baby some clothes today... Hit Joann's etc and got this curio cabnit i wanted, I am going to use it for witchy books, and things... I should be able to display my crystals and not worry about baby getting them... I'll get a latch for the top so she cant open it... I did way too much today though and i am paying for it... Just getting out of bed to go to the bathroom is torcher... Oh well i should run, its almost 4:30 in the morning... I did fall asleep for a few hours I need to try and get some more sleep... Hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving... HUGS

Not much going on around here today... Finally finished all the laundry now just need to put it all away... Hubby did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen up since i cant stand for too long periods... My back really bothered me this morning, so bad it was shooting pain down my legs... So i did some crafts this morning and online looking at laptops and macs... I have some money and i am not sure what i want... This laptop i am on is over 3 years old... We went looking on sunday but i would like to have more choices to compare what is out there... Also i would like learn how a mac works but i dont know if i want to spend that kind of money, what if i dont like it...? So we might go up to buffalo this friday, they have a mac store up there and maybe look around...

I got up at one time this morning to check on baby and there she was sleeping in her bed with her blanket wrapped around her and her head cushioned on her stuffed little nemo... I wanted to take a picture but i didnt want to wake her up so i refrained... She hasnt been feeling well so when she does fall asleep i let her sleep for as long as she wants or needs...

I'm feeling kinda restless... Bored... I am not sure what to do with myself... Ive been feeling off all day... We went to kmart to pick up a few things and baby hasnt been feeling well has the sniffles and she was a beast when we had to leave... She didnt want to put her coat on and she let the whole store know... I finally got her coat on, but i lost it leaving the store... I just started crying... Not really sure what brought the whole thing on... Hormones from being pregnant... ? I havent been taking my prozac, that could be part of it... I just keep forgetting to take it... I need to get better with that...

I found that the cats did get one of the mice they have been playing with... Founds its dead little body under the kitchen table... I try to get them away from the cat and put them back outside but they just never held onto it long enough for me to get a box or pick them up and put them and mouse outside...

Oh well i need to finish some laundry... hugs and love

Its my friday, and i am so glad its here... I am only working 2 days next week, so i get a nice weekend and the holiday and black friday off... I need it, i have been so tired this week its not funny... Work hasnt been too bad... I enjoy the ladies i sit with... One of the ladys her sister was pregnant and due in january too, she developed preclampsia and they had to take the baby early she was born weighing 2 lbs 7oz... So tiny but she is breathing on her own and no feeding tubs... just heart monitors and a few other things... So her sister and baby are doing good...

Hunting season started so it was watching out for running deer this morning and idiots in the road with guns... I have nothing against hunting season, but use your head, you dont need to be standing in the middle of the road or come out of the woods on your 4-wheeler like a maniac...

Not totally sure what our plans are for the holidays, think it will be going between three houses... Wonder if my sister will be coming over... I doubt her husband will, i cant stand him... I am amazed though my sister finally went out and got a job... I think my brother said she is working at arbys... Hey any job is a plus... Great if she could afford to be a stay at home mom but they couldnt, they couldnt pay bills some months, didnt have enough money for food, or gas, etc... Hello if you cant take care of your family then its time to go back to work and suck it up... I still cant believe she screwed that nursing home job she had years back, up... They re-trained her , got her certified and she would have been making decent money and had benefits... My sister though over reacts and she had a bad day, said she quit and walked out, when she came back in to explain things they didnt want to hear it... It wasnt the first time she did that either... So now its either retail for her or fast food, any place that would hire teenagers since she never graduated high school... I just hope she keeps the job and then leaves my mom alone... She will bad mouth my mom and give her shit but my sister has no problem asking for money or food... Between her and my brother i think they expect my mom to always take care of them... Some day they will both have a rude awakening to the world... Oh well....

I have just been relaxing last few days, been uncomfortable... baby is so active i think she is trying to push her way out... So i have been watching movies, and making up designs... I got a new shipment of beads in today with the goddess pendants i wanted, i love those little things... I also got some wolf heads, not sure what i am doing with those... I hope all my other beads will be in by next week... Too many ideas floating around my head and on paper... I just love doing it though... I think we are going to the mall tomorrow to do some xmas shopping and some other things...

Well baby is up in my ribs so i think i am going to lay down see if i can get her out of there... if not at least its a little more comfortable than sitting up...

Hugs to all

Nothing much going on here, its been raining so hard i cant get over it... Worried that tomorrow there will be flooding ... I wish my weekend was here all ready i just want to relax i have been really tired this week... Baby E is kicking up a storm i think she didnt like what i had for dinner... lol... We went to walmart tonight after work, hubby wanted to see if the new expansion pack for everquest was there... Of course they didnt have it... They did have people lining up for the new playstation, it was not even 6pm yet... People are crazy sometimes lol... We picked up some things we needed and some extra things... I was happy to see that walmart actually had some toddler beds in the store... I thought i was going to to have to order it online... Hubby woke this morning to baby crying she was ontop of her changing table... So this weekend we are getting one of those.. And then we will move the crib into the new baby's room... oh well i think i am off to bed... hugs and love

Its monday and nothing too exciting, i didnt get half of what i wanted to get done today... I had my doc visit, that went ok except baby associates the nurse with needles so she just see's her and starts to cry... She got a bit upset when the doc came in and i stood up but she was good after that, she even helped the doc with listening to the baby... She let her hold the speaker to the monitor... Baby loved it... Then the nurse had to come in to give me my shot and baby cried for that... She cried louder when i got my shot even though i kept telling her it was for me and it was ok... I did find out that my doc is getting married, i remember when i was in giving birth for R and all the nurses were wondering if her bf would pop the question... So i get to meet with one of the other docs for my next two week visit, i dont think i have ever really seen him though... Doc says my blood sugars are great, so i am doing good there and in a few weeks i will get another ultrasound to see how big the baby is...

After the doc visit we ran to kmart and the grocery store to pick up some things we needed... I really didnt do alot today but boy is my body hurting... My back was clicking so bad thru the grocery store... I stopped by my moms to see if i had any mail and he and his gf were there so i volenteered him to come over and carry my packages in for me... :) So i didnt have to run around and try and grab everything and get little one in the house... That was my exciting day...

hugs to all

Today wasnt anything exciting... Spent a good part of the day hanging out in bed with baby... We watched tv and some movies, it was a nice day... Hubby was helping his sister with something so he was gone for most of the day...

I had wanted to make things today i just couldnt make up my mind what i wanted to do... I waited for hubby to come home so it was a bit easier since baby likes to play with my things... So i played around a bit and made two things... I also have been going thru fire mountain gems site to see what goodies they have... I have a shopping cart going right now and i dont think i can afford everything i have on it but we shall see...

Been trying to get christmas lists together so we know what to get everyone... I just want to do it and get it over with... Then concentrate on things for the baby...

We really need to get working on the new baby's room... I was playing around during the week how i would make our house bigger if we had the money to do it... I like making floor plans, lol... Its like when i do the prayer beads i like to draw things out and i like to draw what attachments i have for them... I was upset when we went to target last weekend that they didnt have the notebooks i like to keep my designs and crystal info in... So now i will have to find something eles... I will have to go to staples or something... The books i have that i like are long length wise and short width wise, they also have graph paper in the back...

I have a prenatal visit tomorrow... I hope baby will let me put her down this time... One time i had to hold her thru the whole visit... So we shall see... Oh well i should run... Hugs and love to all....

Its my friday thank the goddess... I didnt think i would make it thru today... Usually by work day 5 my back hurts so bad... I lucked out and my sup took me off the phones for about an hour which gave me time to stretch and feel a little better... Those chairs in the call center are murder on your back... All in all it wasnt a bad day... I do have one word of advice to internet users, when you call your internet provider its because you cant connect to the net... We are not trained in every piece of software or harware out there so when you can surf on the net but your printer wont print the page you need CALL YOUR DAMN PRINTER COMPANY not your ISP... Also dont put the person down that you are talking to who isnt trained on everything under the sun because your too STUPID to know how your stuff works or your too STUPID that you dont know who to call... It kills me the people that call in and think we should trouble shoot it all... Why dont you take the time to learn how your crap works... Gotta love the people who call in i dont know how to send an email, or how to shrink a picture or how do i make an attachment etc... Your programs have a lovely little button in the upper corner its called the HELP button... Dont be so afraid to try and play around with things, whats the worst that will happen? it wont work? Or you might just teach yourself something... Get a book, take a class, have your kid who probably is smarter than you teach you how to use the expensive toy you just bought... Oh and dont use the I'm 80 years old card... If you feel your too old then dont buy the damn thing and get on the net, you dont deserve to be on it... Age is not to be used because your too lazy to learn something... Whew... ok rant over for now...

I am so tired this week, i feel like i am dragging tush... two more days of work... I feel so huge some days... lol

Work is going ok, I am taking the new calls for about 2 weeks now, some calls i feel confident others i am like what the hell do i do with this person... Help desk is my friend... I spent the last 30 min doing my open enrollment for our medical benifits ... Thankfully i looked over all the paperwork all ready so i know what i wanted... the insurance is more expensive but the coverage is better so i took it... I also enrolled in a fsa account (flexible spending account) for copays and medications... I put 300.00 into it for the year i am not sure how much i would need for the year so 3 sounded like a good number... Its just nice cause you get the card in the beginning of the year and if i need to get meds or tylenol etc i know i will have money i dont have to worry about coming up with it... Just made sense to try it...

The weather has been warmer here than normal november weather... I wish it felt more like fall... I have to remember this monday at my bi-weekly prenatal appointment to get my flu shot... I have to make my list out cause i know i will forget, lol...

Well going to run baby is climbing all over me and i want to play for a bit... hugs to all

I am so tired this week, i feel like i am dragging tush... two more days of work... I feel so huge some days... lol

Work is going ok, I am taking the new calls for about 2 weeks now, some calls i feel confident others i am like what the hell do i do with this person... Help desk is my friend... I spent the last 30 min doing my open enrollment for our medical benifits ... Thankfully i looked over all the paperwork all ready so i know what i wanted... the insurance is more expensive but the coverage is better so i took it... I also enrolled in a fsa account (flexible spending account) for copays and medications... I put 300.00 into it for the year i am not sure how much i would need for the year so 3 sounded like a good number... Its just nice cause you get the card in the beginning of the year and if i need to get meds or tylenol etc i know i will have money i dont have to worry about coming up with it... Just made sense to try it...

The weather has been warmer here than normal november weather... I wish it felt more like fall... I have to remember this monday at my bi-weekly prenatal appointment to get my flu shot... I have to make my list out cause i know i will forget, lol...

Well going to run baby is climbing all over me and i want to play for a bit... hugs to all

We headed out to the mall today... Figured it would be a nice day out and the weather was nice as well... So we hit the craft store, I got more beads, lol... Then we went to old navy got some clearance things for the R, and some socks, they have them with the rubber stuff on the bottom so i like them for the house so i know she wont go flying when she runs down the hall... Petco had some kind of kitten adoption going on out front of the store so while i sat on the bench petting the ladys dog, R and hubby went over to the kittens and she just had a ball... We didnt go to half the stores over there i just get way too tired too fast... They actually opened a macys in the mall but i just wasnt up to it... Maybe next time... I didnt even get to the bookstore to see if they had any other crystal books... We did get to the super walmart though, we havent been there in some time and the whole store is redone and rearranged... I didnt know where anything was, the craft section looks so much smaller now...

Well it didnt take long my brother went back to the gf... My mom said she would tell me about it tomorrow she didnt want to talk about it yet... I guess he likes being misserable...

Funny thing tonight hubby comes into the bedroom and tells me i have to see what the baby did, he couldnt just tell me cause it would loose the funniness of it... He told me to go into the kitchen and look at the sliding doors... There stuck to the door was the oreo cookie she was eating earlier i guess she was done with it ? Or maybe she thought it would be a convient place to find it later...We had a good chuckle over it...

Today was a blah day... I woke up in pain, my back bothered me through out the night and when i woke it was still bothering me... I also had a headache that just kept getting worse throughout the day... So i left work early i really didnt want to use the sick time but it was getting so bad... I got home had some lunch and went to bed...

Nothing much going on here... Havent talked to my brother so not sure if he is still at moms or if he went back to the gf... I am hoping to get out of the house tomorrow, get R some snow boots and maybe snow pants... I want to get paint for the new babies room i am looking at light shades of violet and mauve... I need to talk to my mom about renewing the cell phone contract too... We got a promotion in the mail and i would like to take advantage of it... My credit sucks so mom got us the cell phones... Hubbys phone has been going down hill for months, and it got worse after he cracked the screen... So new phones would be nice...

Oh well nothing eles to babble about so going to doodle some designs... Blessings to all

Met with the diabeties people today... This time it was a lot better than when i had the first baby... That lady just confused me and just didnt do a good job... This time i had a nutrisionist (sp) there and the other lady... And they explained things so much better... I also dont have to get all that diabetic food like last time... I also got a new meter from them... I just have to remember to call the regular doc tomorrow for a script for the test strips...

Looks my brother and his gf are on the outs... Will he go back? Who knows if he will... The relationship had issues and it just kept getting worse... It got to the point my brother wasnt aloud to go out, talk to any of his friends, call his family, she checked his cell phone voice messages, etc... I kept telling him if you are that unhappy get the hell out... Bad thing is he bought two cars and he put the title in her name...He is going to get copies of the bill of sales but i told him dont hold your breath... She doesnt want to give anythng back, she even wants him to pay for the tail light he broke... Its his car... So he threw 7 bucks on the table and said here thats all your going to get... I just wish i could have seen the fights they have gotten into... I saw some when they lived across the way but she never totally let her guard down... I dont think she wanted to look bad in my eyes... This way she could weave her story and for a time i would believe her but she messed up one time in front of me and i have never trusted her since then... She likes to play the victim... I think things will get worse before it gets better... Its just a big ole' soap opera...